Knowing which is the right path to choose for our children is not a simple matter.... Many times it is our own pretensions that cloud the decisions we must make. Don't believe it, it is not easy to be a good parent. Many times we project the fears and the things that we experienced from our parents... In simpler words, we repeat an infinite cycle that goes from what has been familiar to us in our lives, to what we believe is ideal for our children's future.
It seems very confusing what I'm trying to say.... But in practice it is very difficult. As a mother myself, I live in constant debate between what I should do for my daughter and what I want. They don't always go hand in hand, nor are they similar.... In fact, if I think about it coldly and calculatingly, living in the country I live in and being aware of all the problems we have to deal with on a daily basis; the most convenient decision for her, for my baby, would be to prepare her emotionally, humanely and economically to be a successful migrant.
Is that what I want for her? No. Absolutely not. In fact, the mere fact of having to think about this makes me very nervous and vulnerable. That child is my life, and I don't know if I am prepared for a case like the one I am presenting in this post.... However, every parent in the world knows that if we have to sacrifice for our children, we would do it without hesitation. And although it may seem strange, this post was born from a quiet conversation, with ice cream in hand between mother and daughter, while we were walking on a beautiful autumn afternoon.
“Mommy, I'm pretty sure about it. I want to be an artist when I grow up...” Not to discourage or dissuade her, what she provoked in me was very powerful. It opened a Pandora's box that I don't know if I had ever “opened” before..... I cannot be objective with her..... Don't get me wrong, I know what is best for her and what would be best for her quality of life, but at the same time, I am a witness of the talent and dedication that my little girl has since she was very young. She dances, acts, sings, and is a “fish in water” when it comes to getting on stage. Honestly, I don't see her being an accountant or an educator.... And there is nothing wrong with those professions but my dilemma does not give way.... Do I encourage and support her dream, or do I decline and guide her into the stability of monotony? It's not a simple answer, nor is it safe ground Why? There is no certainty about which would be better.
Sometimes what seems simple is not so easy when you care about the consequences of your acts. I am clear about the goal of my motherhood: that my daughter is really, genuinely happy.... I am also very aware of where I live and what the limitations of my life and my country are. But I don't allow my frustrations to block what could be a brighter future. And ea the mere possibility of her achieving what I know she has been reaping since she was a nanita de 5; steals my breath. I don't have to decide yet; there's really no rush. But if u to reasonable doubt.
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