Hello @motherhood community!!
It's been a long time already since I posted a blog here and today ,I have something to share with you about my motherhood journey.
I grew up with a non showy parents .I never heard them saying the word "I love you" to me and to my siblings but I know how much my parents love us but as I've said ,they are not the type of parents that vocally showing how they love us.
And now that I am already a parent ,I can compare my self to my kids as I and my husband are making sure to show our love either vocally and in our actions.
At the young age ,I learned to be independent,I can clean my self alone ,I can have my meal alone even at the age of 8 I know how to cooked rice and the different house chores.
As a little independent kid ,I went to the school without my parents companion ,I can go to school with our neighborhood,my childhood friends.
My life as a kid is different with my kids now.
Although I teach them to be independent but when about going to school ,I make sure to be with them while they are still young.
My youngest son now is a kindergarten student while the eldest is garde four already.
And as a growing kid ,my eldest son are not asking me anymore to take him to the school.We paid his uncle to take and fetch him after school.
But for my youngest son ,I need to take him and wait for his classes to finished.
I tried to talked to him that I need to work as I wanted to help my husband but he doesn't want me to work as he wants me to be his side always.
Many times I tried to talked to him but he doesn't want me to do.
I am in the situation honestly that I need to work but I need have to be at the side of my son .I need to make money but how about my kids?How sure I am that they are okay if I am not beside them?
And since he doesn't want me to work ,I just realized that I need to enjoy and treasure this moment while he is young coz time comes just like his older brother that it's okay for him to be not beside to me always .
I have this guilty feeling honestly that I can't make a money for the family but I realized that time will come that I can do that.And in that for sure my kids are growing.
So now ,I enjoyed and treasure this moment coz the time will come that I will surely missed this ...