Thank you @livinguktaiwan for upvoting my post previously despite my distressed vague explanation, and also @demotruk for not condemning me straight up, yet with comforting words.
Also thank you @fusion.lover for temporarily lending me some funds to consolidate my mortgage payment that is due today (auto cut)
So now with the reason for the HIVE Community to understand better why I un-bashfully seek help for 1 HBD a hive-ian this is how it all started.
It all started where I started looking for part-time jobs to service my recent overdrafts due to many series of my mom's emergency calls.
Right before her most recent Superficial Keractomy (just this Wednesday), my mom had many series of Bronchitis attacks (where you can click the picture to know more)
To understand more about the procedure, you can click on the image above.
For the last 2 months I have been doing a lot of overdrafts to make sure that there's still a roof on our heads and food on the table without abusing #HIVE funds because I believe in the strength of this community on the long run.
@dbfbfutures team including @fusion.lover found a fund manager program where we could add our savings for the future.
I didn't put in a lot, but then when the Margin Call happened, including the fund manager account (as he set us up as copy trade if not mistaken), all went down to the drain.
The rest put in by the thousands and they had a huge bled out.
Then 8 days ago, somehow, not in my right mind, I was compromised by a scammer who managed to hacked the original administrator account (or set itself as the administrator when the administrator was offline)
I lost at least 0.05 ETH, and it took me 4 days to figure out how to move out the contract tokens with RealT to a safe place.
I believe at that time, my mind was already undergoing stress and was not able to think straight, like my usual "logical mind" would.
Then came this "part time job" that came by and picked up as I submitted my phone number as contact, hence that's how it started.
All started as innocent task
As I wasn't sure what was going on I was given a trial run on the requirements of the task, which was innocently a "paid to like" task.
You can see within one day I started earning quite a bit that was enough for me to actually star paying back my credit card. With all the hospital runs, I was spending too much of petrol (gas) and I wanted to quickly service back my credit card.
The next day I was literally enjoying just to click and commit my report. Within that day itself I accumulated enough to purchase supplements for mom.
On 29 November, things started to change....
Without completing special task, my per click wage was cut into half. But seeing that there was just RM100 (from the wage that I earned - I didn't payback anything yet), I gave it a try.
I thought to myself: "this was from the earnings I got from this part time, so if I lose it, it is just the wage I got here, and not my own savings"
Then I realised that this is actually futures trading course.
I was told to do exactly what they required me to do and it was "easy peasy".
All I needed was to "deposit the fund", do exactly what they say, when there's profit return, I withdraw it.
After that I managed to do 10 more task during the day while waiting for my mom's surgery to be done and I got the additional pay to settle her hospital discharge bills, pay tolls, bought supplements for her eye recovery, and even for laundry.
Sounded too good to be true?
But it was.
During the night before the end of the task there was a round 2 of futures trading, but this time we are done as a team of 3.
However, this was something that I wasn't really prepared for...
Because I wasn't a "newbie" anymore, I have to take task 2, RM300 deposit. Because it was a (1+1) task, which mean I needed to do twice the futures trading, I thought that I only needed to use the RM300 and perform twice as instructed and then withdraw.
Little did I know I had to put in another RM500!
I was very hesitant to do it, but seeing because I was in the team, I had to execute it. Praying very hard, I commit it to the LORD
After a short round of very anxious heart, the task went successfully and I got back with bonus.
I thought to myself, "okay if this is the only requirement for RM300 task, then I can still work through this"
I was very naive indeed
Then it was yesterday, when my world came crushing down.
After consulting and trying to find out more information (which I wasn't able to) I actually committed to the LORD that I will just keep doing RM300 task and never exceed it.
Little did I know that this was not the case.
I wasn't able to "complete" the task and the amount went bigger and bigger, and out of panic and trying to get my withdrawal amount, arguing with the team leader even, I gave in and emptied my savings (and my mom's cornea transplant surgical fee set aside for 4 years), maxed out my credit card limit, to get this last task done....
Approximately $5000 USD .....
(after calculating what really happened)
AND THERE.... one of the team members did the wrong call and got everyone's fund stuck, UNLESS WE TOP UP $2500 USD to "repair the call"
This is when I called @fusion.lover , and she asked me to "CUT THE LOSSES"
But because I have emptied my savings, maxed my credit card, I wasn't able to service my mortgage that was due today.
And yesterday, in shame, in guilt, I plead for help
To at least service my mortgage, because by the grace of God, the banks was actually going haywired and I couldn't move any other savings that was locked for my car loan and last month's balance transfer loan (to settle overdraft).
Praise the LORD indeed that fund was protected and I still managed to service these 2 loans, and I just needed to pay my mortgage on time.
And this is the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth, so help me LORD.