The year coming to an end creates an avenue for reflection.
This is true with many of us. Some do this daily, weekly, and monthly, and for most people, they do this yearly, so it's only at a time like this, that they reflect on their previous expectations for the year when the year was still new and afresh.
Now the year is close to the end, and whether we like it or not, our brain is wired to indulge in some reflection about our wins and losses.
More importantly, we want to know if we’ve grown as a human
Or we are not better than the man we were yesterday.
While writing this, I thought about it myself. And although many do have goals and expectations for the year, it's only a few who get to achieve them.
And the only reason for achieving them is to work toward them. There is no other magic pill needed.
Work
At the beginning of the year, I saw myself as a smoker. I smoked all night and day, but my goal was to make sure I put an end to all of it before the year ran out.
There were months I battled it and later on failed. And I almost gave up on this simple goal. It's easy to look at it from the outside, but much harder if you've had an experience with any addictive substance. It could be anything really, but the fact is that to be able to break off them requires you to work both mentally and physically for your freedom. Because something else has taken over you.
Those who don't work
While I was trying to break off and working towards this, many people who are in the same shoe as mine saw me as a joker who just likes to ramble about what he's never going to do but likes to talk about it.
All due to the fact that I moved from abstinence to relapsing all over again. Sometimes weeks, a few times I was able to go for a month without hitting the blunt, but in the end, I messed it all up whenever the urge got too intense to tackle.
However, November came, and I was able to break off until now and all it takes is working relentlessly(mentally and physically) towards trying not to be the man I was yesterday.
I don't know about tomorrow or the next, but being able to break off for a longer time(up until now) than I've ever been able to seem like a big achievement to me and if that's the only thing I can be able to grow and evolve from then it's enough for me. And for others who are still down the rabbit hole, it's best to know that you owe it to yourself to work towards achieving any goal you wish to as long as you put your mind to it.