Almost three and a half years ago, in May 2017, I was at a pretty low point in my life. And let's be honest, not for the first time.
I had finished University 10 years before. Now I was 35, single, without a job ( the latter a conscious choice ), with no house to live in and I had almost run out of money.
Two months prior to this moment, I had returned from the Canary Islands. After 6 months of healthy air, meditation, lots of exercise, nice weather and an abundance of space, I was feeling pretty ZEN. Even though the zombie film project that I had been working on out there hadn't gone according to plan, I was finally at peace again, was hearing my inner voice again.
That was back in March though. It was May now. Two months had passed and I had already lost all of my ZEN-vibes. The system and the Netherlands, as well as drama in my family seemed to drain me day by day. I was depressed and hoped that my creativity and some alone time in a place that approximated nature ( not easy in The Netherlands ) might give me back some of that ZEN.
Cabin in The Woods
It was May 2017 and I decided to return to a cabin in a bungalow park surrounded by 'nature'. A place where, back in 2013, I had spent two months ( when I was in a similar state of mind ).
In case it wasn't clear to you yet, I was feeling very low, down in a hole.
Love this song 'down in the hole' by James Taylor and its lyrics ( you might want to give it a listen after reading )
It wasn't all darkness though...
That same month, when I felt desperate enough to sell a big chunk of my DVD collection ( tough for somebody who studied film ) for some measly euros, I suddenly got a pleasant surprise: The tax return from my last job.
A little over 3000 euros.
This happened just after I had learnt about crypto.
Talking about timing!
TO BE CONTINUED...
The image above my post, a Photo by Spencer Selover from Pexels approaches the way I felt back then.