-William Shakespeare.
A little more than 20 years ago, one day in January, when I was simply washing the dishes and in front of me an image appeared, as if I could see two things at once or had 4 eyes, of a cemetery, a tombstone with a single wreath, I never imagined what would come next.
Three months later my maternal grandmother was diagnosed with cancer. There was no remedy, the tumour in her brain was inoperable and she was only given 6 months to live.
In that period of time it happened again and again, an image of my grandmother convulsing, and another one in the early hours of the morning where they called me to tell me she was gone. I was 24 years old and it was the beginning of a new path in my life.
Just the beginning.
I don't need to guess what it would be like to see the moment of death of my loved ones, I know.
Gift or curse? I don't know. I think it's both.
On the one hand, it helps me to be prepared for what is to come, although I don't think anyone is prepared for the death of a loved one.
On the other hand, it is a great suffering and even torment. Because I know something that no one else knows and I carry it with me.
Twenty years of tireless searching for why this happens, and the conclusion in a nutshell is that my soul is prepared to bear this fact.
Doors that open from time to time, without my control for me to see things, it just happens.
I denied it, I rejected it, but it didn't help, it became dreams. I see it in my sleep, waking up in the night knowing it.
A month ago my cousin passed away, but almost a year before that I dreamt she was leaving, nothing I can do, that message is only for me.
Yes, only for me, I would never tell the person involved.
Every human being chooses their life, life is a path of events, decisions and opportunities. I am no one to intervene in that path. The consequences could be dire.
Death could occur more prematurely, or that person could live the remainder of his or her life in a painful and sad way. No, these things cannot be said.
Each person is in charge only of oneself. Each person is responsible for his or her life, for his or her choices.
The implications of saying this to the person are unpredictable, because it all depends on what that person is like. There will be people who say... I have a lot to resolve and I will do it, but others will sink into the deepest sadness and will not live in the here and now.
I know that when the time comes I will see my own death, my death, but it doesn't matter, I'm not afraid of it, it's just a step towards what is to come.
There are things that must be kept quiet, because it is not for us to interfere. Each soul chooses its life before it comes, let it live what it has to live.
And many ask me: and what is this for? To evolve, to know that there are time lines, to respect the other and to understand life. Learning on my way. I see the world differently.
And yes I have learnt a lot, but less than what I lack, I always say that.
Grateful to @galenkp for this opportunity, when I read the first topic this weekend, I didn't have to choose, I knew it was for me. And this time I don't mean it as an anecdote of terror or suspense, but as a life experience. Thank you.
There is so much more to this existence than meets the human eye.
All photographs are my own.