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he who is slow to anger is better than the mighty; and he that ruleth his spirit than he that taketh a city.
~King Solomon (Proverbs 16:32)

Hi there, this is @drceeyou once again, and I am excited to be writing to you again.

Yes, you in particular.

I don't even know you?

Yeah, that's what makes this letter particularly interesting. You know why? Because we are alike in at least this one way. We both have emotions and sometimes we could both fly off the handle and get caught in somethings that we would rather not imagine or talk about.

What the hell am I talking about?

OK. Just keep reading. This is my own entry for the weekend prompt by @galenkp in THE WEEKEND community, and I have chosen to talk about my biggest achievement: or what I consider my biggest achievement, by my own standards. For you to appreciate this, I would like to tell you a little story.

You see, I was raised in what most would consider an emotionally unstable environment. My Father had the greatest difficulty expressing any form of approval for the longest time. Although it never got to him using his fists, my Dad was one with a temper that occasionally was difficult to bewield. I watched some pretty rough times between not only my both parents but between myself and my dad.

So, I grew up with a mixture of fear and rage. Rage that I couldn't explain but I knew was there. I was always angry, well not always. But I wasn't hesitant to show my wrath whether it was called for or not. I didn't really know why I was angry.

The interesting thing was that I came from a religious background that considered a straight face at all times a sign of deep piety and devotion to God. I would boast on the fact that I felt spiritual, I believed I was being spiritual by being angry, and when I say being angry, I mean keeping a straight face at all times and trying as little as possible to fraternize.

Given my present state, it was easy for me to fly off the handle at the slightest provocation. And because I couldn't justify my outburst as "holy anger", I was led to repeatedly ask for forgiveness and cleansing on account of the sin of outburst because apparently, self control is a fruit of the spirit. So when I learnt about that option(holy anger), I wasted no time to craft my outbursts to suit my religious slant of having a holy indignation ...whatever that means.

Looking back, I cant imagine how I failed to see the irony in the whole thing. I kept anger bottled up in me and kept a straight face yet I was meant to avoid displaying any fits of anger as it would be considered a sin, except if could be justified as "holy anger".

Anyways, I trust I have given you a background to understand what I mean when I say that my greatest achievement is my ability to identify my emotions and control them. Most people find it a herculean task to identify their emotions, let alone control them. I got to know that having the ability to manipulate my own emotions could be one big asset that many have failed to see.

I like to see it like this. If you know how to see your emotions, anger for example and control it, using an on/off switch, hypothetically speaking, You could study the environment and know when anger is necessary and when it isn't. In my interactions with people I have had to use anger to get them to listen before they did something stupid.

Do you see why I consider this my greatest achievement? The ability to introspect, ID your emotions and fashion them for your own benefit...That has to be a superpower.

I know this can also be very dangerous. But so is electricity. People could lose their lives if this ability is used wrongly. Very true. But I could say the same for cars, and roads that have killed millions since their invention.

What's my point? Anything that is powerful enough to make a positive change can also be used to make a negative impact if it falls in the wrong hands and with ulterior motives.

There is still a lot of work I have to do in studying myself, my emotions and learning to control them. But I can say, I am no longer that guy that would fly off the handle or considers an everlastingly straight face to be piety in any form.

I hope you got something. If you did, leave an upvote, a comment, and rehive.

Till I write again.

Stay Jiggy.

@Drceeyou signing out.✌️

PS: special thanks to @galenkp for this opportunity to be this expressive. Hive is making me do things I never thought I would do.