That surely looks like a live well lived. Often times it is us who holds ourselves back, and in your letter you acknowledged that and encouraged yourself to live. Sometimes you really just got to do it. Worries are shackles and its sort of refreshing to see you trying to break yourself out of yours.
Also, India?! Damn girl you've been everywhere haven't you!?
RE: Dear River: Feel the Anxiety and Do it Freaking Anyway