Camera! Light! Action!

Camera!!! Light!!! Action!!!

That's right, I hated acting with a passion, it made me very uncomfortable, It has never been something I considered doing, not ever. I hated even being chosen for a school play or church dramas. I've been approached by drama and movies agencies before to feature me but I turned all of it down cause it just wasn't something I saw myself doing.
On one part, I was reserved and camera-shy but on the other part I just didn't find myself or believe I could act any of the roles well enough since it wasn't even something I was fond of to start with, knowing and playing out my scripts would have been a major problem and challenge too. No matter how much people believed in me, tried to motivate me that I could do it, I kept telling them I wasn't up to the task and that I couldn't do it so they should find someone else or a replacement.

I've been given a role many times in drama groups but on the day of presentation, I either get intentionally sick or go missing. One time I was given a role in school play way back in my nursery school when I was child, I fought everything in me not to partake but my classroom teacher was not having it. Long story short, I became a laughing stock doing the drama because of the kind of role I was given. It traumatized me as a kid and I hated to ever be seen in any school play, drama presentation as a whole. I hated people sitting and watching me act or present, I hated those laughs, side talks and ridicules. To some of them it means you are playing or acting your role well but to me it was demeaning and embarrassing so I never wanted to see myself in that position ever again.

But as I grew up, my reasons changed, not about the terrible experience I had as a child, but a decision I made based on my kind of person and the things I love to do and those I wouldn't ever be seen or found doing. Dramas, acting was one of those very activities I hated and I believe I still don't ever wanna try. I can't exactly say what it feels like now because using the word HATRED for acting seems to be a little too strong, it's not like I hated everything about acting or those who act, I just didn't want it to be me doing it, cause truth be told I've always been amazed by those who act and act their roles perfectly well.
So yes, in summary, acting is and was that activity I hated with a passion and very uncomfortable doing.