“Chains of habit are too light to be felt until they are too heavy to be broken. - Warren Buffett”
I don't enjoy writing too much about myself but I do notice I get improvements every time I do because like they say, a problem shared is a problem half solved and I really do hope that this time won't be an exception. You know, If I tell you I'm a good person how will it sound to you? Won't you want to think I'm boasting or something? But if I tell you that I'm not a good person, you will feel comfortable with that, right? Well, I do that to people so I know there are others who are like me too but I still won't be surprised if there aren't.
The years keep going by like months and I see that I'm getting older everyday but there are still some things in me that are yet to change even when I know I should change them. I have always been someone that likes bringing people to myself but you know, I don't know how to keep them to myself 😏. I have a very big problem with ANGER, yes, I easily get angry at people but always for a reason though but it's still bad to get angry either ways so why can't I just do away with it? ☹️🤦♀️.
Over the years I have acquainted with different types of persons and almost all of them have complained about me always getting angry easily, especially my little brother. Whenever he does something wrong and I try to correct him, I mostly look really vexed and that makes him want to disregard my advice even when he knows I'm saying the truth. I too hate the fact that people keep telling me about one thing every time but I don't know why it is so hard for me to let go of that anger part of me.
Well, I think one of the main reasons why I can't let go of my anger issues is because there will always be that one person who wants to do something wrong even after several corrections. Yes, I do not just get angry at you for something I know you don't know anything about but after telling you that same thing more than twice, the third time I will always want to say it in anger, how bad of me. The worst part is after I do that I feel so bad myself especially if the person changes and apologize immediately. I know I'm correcting them so they can feel remorseful and change but when they do it immediately I feel really bad because I had to speak in anger for them to change but I still find it very hard to let go of it.
Being angry most times affects me a lot because I tend to have mood swings, mostly when I'm angry and also when I'm sick too. When I'm angry I always don't do things the right way, I just want to be left alone and not do anything that will involve me talking to people too much so I do not pass my anger to someone that knows nothing about it. But you know the funny thing, it's only when I'm angry I seem to have something to do with people 😂, well I guess that's just a way for me to know how to manage my anger problem but it doesn't work every time 😑.
Well, I've said a lot about something about myself that I know I should let go of but still haven't been able to and I'm sure you already know how the effects it has on me and also, why can't you let it go. If yes, them I'm happy I've been able to successfully sold my problem out and I hope to get someone to recommend a medication for me to keep trying to be better. Also it means I've been able to give my answers to the first question asked by @galenkp for the weekend engagement, you can get the details HERE.
Thank you so much for visiting my blog ❤️.