Life is made up of choices, the choices we make affects us in so many ways.I made this mistake or choice which left me depressed for a while kind of wished i got to fast foward that period
Teenage life is one of the most interesting periods of living ,but few times i made several mistakes and wished i could fast forward that period of time and never lived it .I have several mistakes i did when i was a bit younger, one could say cause of my stubbornness,others home training for me i just felt the world revolved around me. I did what i wanted, had most things i craved for and got away with most bad stuffs i did
But things got side ways when i fell in love ,yeah you read well love a whole me .I came from from a family that barely expressed their emotions,my parents, siblings they all had the same character in expressing how the felt to someone, i guess i am should you say the weakest of them all
I got to meet this guy, to confess is a man every girl desired to have ,because of his character ,intelligence as well his achieve success.He appears to be very friendly calm and above all loving which really made me come to a conclusion that yeah the world truly did revolve around me .
Relationships at first is always very lovely ,being the first person that have ever loved and felt love from though. It was literally cute ,constant calls,hanging out together ,having him to talk to for any stuff both useless and useful,the sexual part of it ,it was amazing .Though we had our flaws, disagreement, we always had ways to amend our quarrel the trust we had all of it. I felt i found something that was practically going to last forever. I ditched most of my friends, made sacrifices ,listened to my parents less.
It takes one day for everything to come crashing down, he just ghosted me for i don't know maybe he had his reason but i was left out of it .We were to hang out in our usually spot and he never showed up,did not reply my text ,my phone call.That's how i lost him
I seriously cannot explain what happened there cause i myself had no clue.All i know is that i was left depressed, I can't even trust anyone till today i mostly feel the will just leave like he did.Even though the fun part of loving was high the depression did hit me that i couldn't recover for months. I kept on thinking of what happened,wondering and wishing he would show up with an explanation but till today i have seen no sign of him.Even though i felt what love was like i rather fast foward the period of my life cause it caused more damaged than i could imagine.
It was a lot to take in and more to tell but i guess i should end my depressed self here .
