My life revolves around my constant thoughts about my future, what will become of me, what will I do, what will I do to get out of this hole I carry inside me, I see the world moving forward, the days passing by, the lives of others in constant change and movement, while mine remains the same.
How difficult it can be to make a decision, to take action, about yourself, about your life, for some it is easy, for others not so much, but that does not mean that you can not do it, everything has its moment, and as they say things take time.
For months, I was dealing with a situation in which I saw myself stagnant, but as a limiting factor to do certain activities, in reality this had me paralyzed, with fear, with anguish, with no desire for anything, no desire to do anything, when your body affects you, your mind is also in this confinement, and you see no way out.
It is here where you think I just want to end this, find a way to feel better, and get ahead, do the things I think, dream and desire, maybe this is not the way, maybe I'm rushing, maybe I should keep looking for opinions, keep consulting, but my mind and my body can not take it anymore, if this is what it is, I will take it and that's it.
This will be my first step to get out of this rut, in which I feel trapped, how do I face it, well it is something I knew that sooner or later it was going to happen, I just think it is for the best, especially thinking about my welfare, my health, before I was afraid, and I do not deny it, deep down I still feel it, but as I said, I must get out of this, move forward, and so I can change my thoughts and plan my future.
I am not so young anymore, the years go by, I must start making plans, see for my future, if I will continue alone or if someone will accompany me in this journey, well only God knows, I only know that it is time to think about me, about what I want, stop dreaming so much, and start acting, and take this first step, it will be the beginning.
Many can give you their opinions, tell you what to do, but only you know what is best for you, what you need, what you want, because at the end of the day it is your life, and only you know what you feel, what you live, no one else, so, if I have personal concerns, if I have them, I have had them all my life, it is complicated, and I know that the only one to blame for all this is me, therefore, only I can get out of it.
As always, here sharing a little of my thoughts and feelings, in the weekend themes of our good friend @galenkp, do not worry, if you do not understand these words, for me, it is enough to share them, and leave them embodied, in the future read them again, and see if I succeed.
I hope you had a happy weekend, friends, greetings to all.
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