This is my post to #weekend-engagement topics week 86: Imagination.
This is my first time participating in this community. and I met it thanks to my dear @Tengolotodo.
I love to use my imagination, that's why I answered the questions interpreting as if I had already lost my sight and I had no choice but to resign myself. I know that would be my way of acting, especially because I suffer from Nictophobia.
Imagine you are suddenly made blind between one second and the next. How would it change your life physically and emotionally?. What would you miss and do you feel there would be benefits?. How do you feel you would cope with the loss of vision?

Unfortunately I suddenly became completely blind, my first reaction was despair.
The day before the events was normal, I cleaned the house and then got ready for work. In the afternoon I arrived home quite tired, took a bath and ate something to go to sleep.
The next day in the morning I noticed that there was no light, I thought it had been cut off since I never turn it off before going to sleep.
And why you may ask? The reason my friends is this, I suffer from Nictophobia or irrational fear of the dark.
So the moment I opened my eyes and saw everything dark my ordeal began. I quickly got up to grab my flashlight, took it out of the drawer it was in and turned it on. Only to realize that the light still wouldn't turn on.
Figuring something was wrong, I opened the door to go out into the garden and contemplate the warm morning light. But all I found was total darkness, which seemed even more immense.
My breathing became more agitated, I felt the blood flowing rapidly in my head, which began to fill with unpleasant intrusive thoughts.. I only remember trying to lean against a wall to support myself before I started screaming in despair and pain at having lost something so necessary in my life. Then before I lost consciousness I heard my family come to my aid.
When I wake up I am in the Hospital, I hear murmurs and feel footsteps approaching me. It is my sister telling me in the most subtle way possible that I have gone blind. My world is crumbling, I feel like I am dying, I will never be able to enjoy my sight again. How can I live like this without something so essential, she asked me again and again without an answer.
A month has passed since that fateful day and little by little everyone around me is taking pity on me. I hate that they do because they make me feel even worse. The only one who treats me the same is my younger sister, she understands me and has helped me get used to moving on in the best way possible.
Then these questions came to my mind after the events

1- How has your life changed physically and emotionally?
Obviously everything has changed, I can't go out alone to do things I used to do. I also feel melancholic and depressed most of the time.

2- What do you miss and do you think there are benefits?
What I miss is:
- Contemplate the sky both day and night.
- See the happy faces of my niece and my pets.
- See the birds fly and the insects that perch on the flowers.
- Read a book.
I have no words to describe what I feel in the deepest part of my being and Perhaps the only benefit would be to be able to perceive better with hearing, thus further developing that sense.

3- How do you think I would cope with the loss of vision?
Well, in my story I already explained how the events happened and how bad I felt, even from time to time I have strong panic attacks. To the point of feeling like I'm going to die, only my family can hold me back.
I swear I don't know if I will ever get used to this....
