I grew up with a whole family. I have parents that I called papa and mama. I have grandparents that I called lolo and lola. I have aunts and uncles which treated me as their own son. I have a lot of cousins which treated me like their own sibling because I don't have one. Where I belong now is the place which my heart wants be. Even if we're not that rich, the spirit within my family is present and growing stronger day by day. It's an ideal family that I want to have when my time to have one comes. I loved it.
But the happy moments we had for the past years may burn to ashes if something unpleasant is to be revealed right infront of me. That is the scenario I imagine if one day I accidentally find out that I was adopted and the people I shared my tears and laugh are not connected to my soul and flesh.
This is my participation to the what if edition of the community Weekend Experiences hosted by none other than sir @galenkp. I chose the situation below and if you also want to join the prompt then feel free to visit this one, WHAT IF.
"What if you accidentally discovered you were adopted and the people you called mother and father were not your real parents. What would you do, how would it affect your life and would you seek out your real parents. Explain in at least 400 words."
If I will find out that I was adopted after all those years that we've been together then for sure my world will be shaken to the point of losing the strength of my knees. It will greatly affect my state of mentality since I grew up in a complete family knowing that they are my real family but one day that "real" in family will fade away.
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It will hurt me for real, making me to lock up myself in my room. It will make me cry ofcourse because I've been living with people that are not related to me instead of being with those really connected to me. Also it will create a temporary gap between us because of the tension in the atmosphere. And take note "accidentally" so it's really bad because I'm already 21 years old and they have the whole time to tell me the truth but they didn't. The feeling of being strange will build up in me and will make me to take a distance from them at the moment. This might really happen because of the thing that I don't know a single thing about myself. The feeling of being cluless about your existence is just scary to think of that's why I'm glad that this is just a what if edition. Photo by Jessica Yap on Unsplash. Since I'm making a distance to them there's no much communication to go on between us maybe about a week because for real the shock to discover that you're not their son is just too much. After a week maybe I can try to open up to them then find out the whole truth about me. By that move, it gave you an idea that I might look for my real family. If there's a chance that they are still alive then it's not bad to track down your real roots. It's not bad to have a two family after all. The more your family is the happier but it depends upon the situation. If they are not alive anymore then still I will seek about where their graves are for me to be able to show my respect to my beloved parents. And if there's a chance that I have siblings on the other side is that I want to have a moment with them once in a while and have fun with them. Because I'm really longing for a sibling you this whole time. By doing those things, for sure the gap that formed when I found out that I was adopted will be filled out. Finding the whole truth about me is not that bad because the more that it will be kept hidden than the longer my soul will suffer for sure. What was written above is one of the things that I will do and the other one is if ever I found out that I was adopted, I can accept it fully and to not seek my past anymore because their feelings might get hurt and our bonds may get weak. I can stay the way we are now that we are contented to the life we have. We are happy that we are together in good times and even in bad times. This is the ideal family that I want after all. Thank you for reading.