October 18, 2022, after two weeks of vacation I resumed working, or I should say been working again for about two days already. As I expected, it was a hectic as piles of were loaded up! Reports to be updated, documents to be pulled out, daily tasks and more. It was indeed a busy day and I felt so tired physically. With that thought I checked my calendar and it says a week before my period. No wonder I felt cramps, thus the stubborn part of me says Hey Lhes, who knows, you might be pregnant! Okay, why not buy a pregnancy kit before going home, there is no harm in trying!
As we arrived in our dorm, I just placed my bag in the living room with the kit in my hands. Following the instructions and after two drops of urine I placed it above the sink to continue releasing the call of nature. Before picking it up again I was like, Okay negative, I know it will because I've been in that situation countless times. Yes it hurts but I was like a masochist. I got USED with it. While holding the door knob I took a glanced at the PT I am holding and I almost lost my balance! Am I seeing it right? or I am seeing this because this is what I wanted to see?
With wobbling knees and shaky hands, I called my officemate Ms. N. Though she seemed to be wondering why I called her, she squealed when I handed her the PT. Did you see another line Ms. N? I wasn't dreaming?
Yes Lhes! Indeed there is!
The moment I heard it, I couldn't help but to cry and was shaking! Mixed emotions that I couldn't explain. I felt like I was about to faint anytime and walking up the stairs going to my room was a challenge! The moment I entered, I just dropped my bag anywhere and chatted with my sisters. Yes, I am seeing it with my naked eyes, but also I wanted to hear confirmation. However they are still at work. Next I leave a message in a group chat with @cindee08 and @romeskie . I really appreciated their efforts in sharing their thoughts and opinions with me.
That night, I was so restless while waiting for my husband to call before his work started. At first I didn't want to tell him not until I had the doctor's confirmation but then with this high emotions in me?
Can you imagine his reaction? Yes, I could still visualized how he smiled and his eyes sparkled with tears and happiness. He was emotional! Couldn't blame him as I know he might not be vocal in telling me his heart desires and longing for it. He just doesn't want to add pressure and burden as he is aware how it frustrates me at times. Believe me, I find it hard to sleep that night! Not only that, I was too afraid to move. Called me paranoid but yeah I was.
Guess what? Last October 28, Saturday, a day before my birthday I took again a PT and this is it!
Second line T is now visible, now I could really tell myself, Yes Lhes, indeed you are pregnant! Without a second thought, I set an appointment with my OB-gyne, good timing as it was a long weekend here in my country.
Medically, after the TVS ultrasound she confirmed that I was in the very early stage of pregnancy, Five weeks and 4 days to be exact finally after FIVE LONG YEARS of WAITING!
Just months ago, I joined Galenkp WE 158 where I expressed my frustration about it. Yet now, here I am again, sharing a blog with the community but this time with good news! Honestly, I never thought that I would be receiving a priceless birthday gift on my 34th birthday! Why? Cause I didn't make it when I was in my late twenties so what was the assurance that I will now that I am in my mid-thirties? However, just like my friends used to tell me, there always be a perfect time when you least expect it!
Supposedly, I am not writing about this as some old wives tales that not too until first trimester was over. BUT as for me I am on the side of manifesting claiming that my pregnancy will be okay! Imagining myself having a baby to cuddle in the 2024 Christmas celebration!
Also, this is the reason why my activity has decreased here. Most of the time, I write at night after work. Stay late until midnight. Thus, Doctor's order I to sleep early! Even though she didn't say anything, I no longer had energy. Oftentimes, I am too sleepy and tired. If not I am on my bed feeling helpless, ahh pregnancy thing and what they called morning sickness.
That's all about my blog today and thanks for dropping by!
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