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Hello fellow hivers!
Ever think of an idea that if God gives you one chance to go back and rewrite your story would you do it? All those warnings and bad things you could have avoided? What would you give to yourself that would help help him not to choose the same you have now?
First and foremost I wanna thank you Sir @galenkp for giving me the chance to express my feelings and share my story to everyone. The story that I will share today will be my response to question number 2 of "Weekend-Engagement topics." I hope people will respect and learn for what I will be sharing today.
If you could go back in time to when you were fifteen years old, what warning and what advice would you give yourself and why?
I was fifteen years old at this time where my mind still focuses on attention and fun things. But things doesn't to look the way it is, everything started when I felt everyone or whatever I do was out of place I was not aware at that time I already am suffering from anxiety and depression. Yes, you heard it right the two words that should never be together but it did I felt and experienced it . If I was given a chance to change and help myself in the past I would do it, I am not saying that I am not happy for what I have and reached now but it's just being a fifteen year old was only a limited time and I badly wanna go back to start over.
You see suffering from anxiety and depression was not easy I have made bad decisions, chosen bad people to be with, I made habits that affected both myself and the people that surrounds me. Years had past day by day I go to the Doctor to help myself get over the things that hurt myself. They would give me prescription to ease the pain but as I keep taking them my feelings and emotions went down hard not because of the side effects but because you cannot enjoy life the way it is. In my opinion taking medicines won't help you but I know what and who can, do you wanna know?
The two things I kept reminding myself how to move forward is to have faith and always talk to God. Having faith not only to God's unkown plans for you, you gotta also have faith to yourself and to the people that believed in you. Next is always pray to the Lord without him you may not be able to experience the essence of being alive. I learned to redirect my self to God even though I may have made mistakes to be exact grave mistakes I surely do believe that he will forgive me and still love me.
When you have faith in life you will learn how to control being dependent and being independent. Having friends will also help you find your way to not give up because they sometimes give you the confidence to keep doing what you love. They can also guide you and support you so don't forget about them when you get older.
When you get to hold your emotions you will be set free from all the hard things that bothers but it doesn't mean those feelings of being depress or having an anxiety vanishes it will never be gone but you can avoid it. I stopped taking medicines and tried new things instead it turns out it what way more better than what I expected.
Explore and don't be afraid of taking some risk to achieve things in life you must also be sure of what path you will choose. Do not fear and keep fighting till the end, it is not bad if you keep trying as long as it will give you a better results in the end.
So, to my fifteen year old self I just wanna say something before I finish this blog: "I am sorry for not protecting you before if this will be the only chance I could have I want to rewrite everything before I go. I will warn you about the upcoming future there will be bad things ohhhh yes a lot of bad things but don't worry just don't give up what ever happened don't give yourself a hard time. Youngblood you have a potential always believe in God's plan and keep moving forward, be aware of the decisions you will make don't be in rush you are still young keep learning and doing the things you love. Be more confident and learn to not fear life because as long as you are breathing you can do many things. One last thing youngblood ignore and override; take risk in return everything will be better soon."
That's it for my blog for today. Have a wonderful morning to evening everyone little giant out!