Sometimes happy, sometimes courageous. Week-161

This phrase, which is one of those proposed by our friend Galen for this weekend, caught my attention and made me think about several things in my life. I tell you.

I am on the way to continue understanding that my happiness should not be tied to what others do or think. That I must build the path to it, step by step and with every act I do or don't do, without forgetting two things: those I love and who are an important part of my life, that is, without being selfish. And not forgetting the humility to recognize that my ideas, thoughts and actions are not always better or greater than those of others, that my truth is not always the truth and that listening to what others have to say is sometimes the key to what worries me so much.

I have felt imprisoned at times. Prey to situations, to people, to opinions. At times I have been a little harsh, I have judged myself, placed handcuffs on myself and sentenced myself to a few years in prison, abandoning my happiness and the courage to regain it. Do I want to repeat that pattern? Of course not!

I know that freedom in every sense is something many of us desire. For example, financial freedom to have what I need when I need it and to enjoy what I want and with whom I want. Or emotional freedom, to break the patterns of the past and enjoy more of the present, lovingly embracing the good things I do have.

When fears threaten I need freedom from them. I also need the courage to face the consequences of my actions, remembering that what I do to be happy may affect others depending on their feelings and my intentions.

The courage to love, to forgive and to trust again those who have hurt or betrayed me, even if that person is myself.

The courage to overcome what hurts, what seems impossible to overcome. The courage to stop limiting thoughts, self-talk that does not add up, such as: "I can't, I don't have, others do, I don't..." The courage to face what I can't change for the moment and still find a way to have a good attitude and be happy while what I am waiting for arrives (that is for the brave).

Likewise, I think that, although many say that dreams do come true, I think the reality, at least in my opinion, is that dreams only come true if you work to make them come true. And if they are a reality, they are not dreams, they are not just a wish, they are goals, objectives, plans, planning and execution.

How will I do it? What is the next step? What do I want to achieve? What will be the possible obstacles? If they arise, how can I handle them?

I believe that nothing comes if I don't have the courage to conquer it, to fight, to act. Because then I would be just a mind chasing desires back and forth.

Sometimes I think I think like a man, 🤣 because I go logical and literal about things. But I know that in the end my female hormones mostly rule my feelings and opinions. Well, I won't digress 😅.

From all this I think that the important thing is to seek freedom, my freedom in the ways and forms I need it, but I must be careful that, in the eagerness to seek it, pursue or want to defend it, I am not actually falling prey to only expectations and desires that are still in the process of being fulfilled and that for now escape from my hands 💜