I am currently living with my auntie, I fondly call them "my oldies," as they are literally old now and already getting their pension as senior citizens. And yes, they are my mommy F and my mommy D, who I often include in my article here. They have already done a lot of good things for me since I was a kid, so I decided not to leave their side and continue supporting them. This kind of life is enough for me, I'm already good with the way things are right now.
One of my dreams right now is to give my oldies and my mama a comfortable life. I'm still far from this dream, I know, but I'm doing what I can so that this dream will come true someday. With my oldies and my mama's age, they should be experiencing a comfortable life where they will never get hungry and have a good place where they can also rest without worrying about tomorrow. It seems like an easy thing to do but really hard. I want the kind of comfort for them where they don't need to think about money over and over again.
Now, if, by chance, the time comes where hunger becomes our main problem because of poverty and I can't find a decent job that has a good pay, first I will find other ways to provide for my family. For sure, I have a lot of options. It will be hard, that's a given, but if I stay consistent with those jobs that I can find, then everything will be okay.
I can be just about anything as long as it gives me enough money to spend on my family. And if I don't have any other option anymore and my only hope is to resort to selling my body, then I'll do it just to earn money. Sex for money? Sure, why not? If it's for them, not to starve them, to give my oldies and my mama a better life? I can do that much, yes. It's not like I will die in sex, except, of course, if I am to have sex with a violent person. I'll die for sure with that. And also, as long as it is safe sex, sure, why not?
I know that this kind of situation is happening in our world right now. They don't have other options to earn money because of their lack of education, this is really one of the many reasons why. Even selling your own body is not that easy, either. But some still do it because they don't have much of a choice. Some even have the other option and still end up doing this because it is a little easier than the other job out there. If it's me, I will only do this if I don't really have an option anymore.
In other words, having sex only becomes a choice for me if there's no hope for me anymore to find other jobs. I know that having sex just with anyone is not safe either, but who am I to be picky if the situation calls for it? Then I don't have much of a choice. Another thing is that I can become the center of attention for other people once they find out what kind of job I have, because to them, this job is not a good or decent job, it is a very unacceptable job to most people or to the whole society.
I mean, there are still people out there who judge easily without knowing the situation of that someone who has to do this kind of job. We don't know their story, we are not in their shoes, so who are we to judge? And, having this kind of job doesn't mean they are a bad person, they are just unfortunate that they have to do this kind of job for them to live.
They just did what they knew was right to do, especially if they were doing it for a purpose and not because they really wanted to do it. I mean, no one really wants to do this kind of thing. They have to do it because they only have one option, for sure. The sad thing is that one option is not a good job in the eyes of the people or even to themselves.
Imagine giving yourself to a random person for money, isn't that just too painful? Just thinking about it makes me feel ashamed. If ever it becomes my reality, I really hope not. I don't want to end up like this, to be honest. And, if ever, I do it, it's only for a short time. If there's a decent job that I can find later on, then I will grab it, no matter how hard that is.
