Have you ever burned for an idea?
Something that you have believed so hard that you would literally set yourself on fire and burn to see it happen in your lifetime?
I have.
So many times.
If I am presented with an idea that I like then I will walk to eternity and back just to see it through. Just to catch a glimpse of the promise I made to myself in the beginning — finally bearing fruit.
We are often presented with ideas in this world, but we approach them wrong.
We say, yes, in three years I would like to see myself here, here, and here -- yet we get upset and crush ourselves when we do not meet these goals.
Don't get me wrong goal setting is good, however stopping to smell the roses and perhaps veering off course isn't a bad thing either.
Nothing bad ever came from considering all of our options with the skills we have at our disposal.
Last year I would have never considered that we would change into the brotherhood and I would start to look out for inspiration again, enjoy creativity, and aim for the stars.
That year was bad, I just made it through, and yet, I had never considered I would be in this good a position back then.
And yet the year before that, deep in savings and liquidity, with not a care in the world, ready to launch a new token -- I would have never in a million years have foreseen the trouble I would have found myself in a year later.
Life, it tends to veer us off into different paths.
One could philosophically ponder is life chosen for us, or do we make our own choices. This is one of those big life questions.
I've always thought life was a random billion moments of chance and opportunity where you either act or don't act on any given moment.
But I've never factored in timing into the equation when thinking of this; I've realised timing is crucial -- when in the past I've considered it inconsequential.
And yet as I've been in my element recently I've burned with questions like why is everything just falling into place now? Why are these people speaking to me now?
Why is everything aligning up with perfect clarity when at the beginning when I started it was all so cloudy.
I just did it anyway.
For the last 3 months, as we've gone through radical change at the brotherhood and I've built on feeling, but never really understood where I was going, only that it felt right and good to do it this way.
And yet the timing has been fantastic, everything falling into place, the right people talking to me at the right time.
It's been nothing short of completely amazing.
How can the timing be so perfect in a random world? Opportunities and people coming to me at the right time.
It really has me pondering the question now, has my life been chosen for me? Is destiny mapped out, was everything aligned before I was even born?
The staunch Atheist in me wants to scream at the world and say,
"NO! Absolutely not, we are randomness of randomness!"
But then the part of me that's seen, and heard things that can't be explained in this lifetime wants to ponder deeper, explore more thoroughly into this era of thought.
And that is why I build blind, and with feeling.
And it's beautiful.