In past,I was very careless and had a great sense of humour . I had no worries or may ve I wasn't that old to worry about . I see myself as a girl who do chirping , making jokes , finding joy in everything but suddenly all that things lost and flew away as smoke , What happened?. The continuous trolling reside inside me and push me to sink in the horrible depth of sad water. The continuous falling of grades in study despite of working hard broke my bones of joy . The continuous breeze of smack talks hit hard on my mind and change me to a new one . I am not which I was ........ ...I am changed now into a hard girl who listens smack about herself and instead of joking and talking back says nothing and hide it in heart . When someone says that you dont look good ,you seem to have thin face ,you are not beautiful , it makes me feel bad and remains in my mind repeatedly , my confidence which I gains after several trials and motivation ruins in seconds . I don't even have money to make my life better ,to bring my parents happiness . Why do I care of money , it was not an issue before but its an issue of now . Because my mind thinks that every bad thing can be removed by money , every issue could be resolved by money , now maybe money is not really the problem ,perhaps its a hope that it will do good in my life . I thought before that animals are not good cause they dont laugh on my jokes but people . Unfortunately, the people I realize not laughed on my jokes but on me. How pitiful was I 😶. I am now responsible , serious ,hard , laughless , emotinless from outside but overflowing from inside .I am changed not because people change because I understands them now , when you understand people and life it becomes difficult to live . You just need to be numb . It seems laugh is not remaind ,my humourous nature , happiness is all gone😶🌫️🩶🩶🖤