What keeps me sane in this insane world? Reflection.
My life is full of busy schedules which means meeting deadlines which can be overwhelming most of the time.
I also have to keep up with house chores, family time, my physical, mental, spiritual, and emotional well-being.
To keep up and strike a balance I developed the habit of self-meditation to keep my mind and soul calm, rejuvenated, and ready for the day.
I usually took those little times of reflection for granted until I lost a very close friend of mine, I guess she died of burnout and eventually Depression.
She used to be a very vibrant lady until suddenly, her profile picture on WhatsApp went blank, and she stopped posting regularly and practically avoided everyone, I noticed and reached out to her but she kept saying nothing was wrong, until one morning I saw a post on her status, "the world is such a lonely place to be" and then I after some days, I saw her obituary everywhere on the net(social media) and I was heartbroken.
Honestly, I used to feel like my life was a mess especially when it's like I'm not reaching my said goals, I used to cry a lot and failed to count my blessing.
But then, I started listening to a show on #Twitter space titled "What do you wanna let off your chest", many people come to rant, cry and share their problems and somehow I started to feel thankful again, thankful because I realized they were people going through worse than I am going through.
Then I learned to take a moment out of my everyday life to reflect, this is not a self-denial of areas I need to work on, but it's also the act of mindfulness and self-awareness.
After I say my morning prayer, it's time to silence the noise from the world. I grab my journal and write what I am grateful for the day, I look around me and stay thankful at least for life, family, shelter, clothing, and every answered prayer. I realized it is because I focused more on what isn't working than what is that made me feel so low in spirit.
Then I ponder on my life and my little wins, while at it this I write down one silly thing I did the previous day and how I intend to do better next time, and then I also write one beautiful thing I did the previous day, it could be going out of my way to put a smile on someone else's face and I commend myself for doing that, I never fail to affirm myself in the mirror, because my mirror isn't just for checking on my appearance, it is also my best tool for boosting my confidence, I stare into my eyes and with these exact words I speak into my existence.
"Amie, you have all it takes to be successful because you're the best, do not let anything or anyone limit you because you can achieve whatever you want if you set your heart to it, you're beautiful, you're conqueror and you can conquer life".
I also create my daily schedule for the day and how I plan to achieve my task without being overwhelmed, this helps me to be organized and focused throughout the day and I never fail to drink my bottle of water every morning which keeps me hydrated and energized and play some cool music to ease minds of my anxiety, I proceed to carry out the daily exercise.
Reflection helps me to understand that failure is a major part of growth, so I am ready to face whatever life throws at me for the day with the right mindset of course.
It also helps me become a better person as I strive to improve my personality.
It also helps me to stay happy and show gratitude for the little things in life by counting my blessing each day despite the chaos of the world.
I have learned to find inner peace in my own company by reflecting every day of my life.
