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It has these attuides of ringing as a voice and bell in my head which tells me often that an not always good enough,not talented or even smart enough. I have battled with self doubt, it has its way of making me backslide from pursuing my dream and aspiration. It always makes me to question myself if I can ever do it because I keep questioning my abilities all day.
One particular experience stands out in my mind always. So I was preparing for a presentation at my work place and guess what the self doubt kept on telling me that I wouldn't be able to do well. I spent hours preparing myself, revising my lines ,notes and at same time worrying over what other people may thinks of me. Of a true my self doubt was dealing with me making it bit hard for me to feel relax
A picture of me taken with my infinx smart 7
But on the deal day, something strange happened as I stood in front of my colleagues, and was about to deliver my own presentation. I frist took a deep breath and something struck on my mind which is a piece of advice my mentor has once given me " my worth isn't defined by my accomplishment in life" immediately I realize that I have been tying my self worth to my success and that has brought upon disaster to me all while long
Immediately I gathered courage and stood my ground, gathered my thoughts and began my presentation. To my expectation it was a smooth presentation. My colleagues were happy and to my surprise everyone picked interest in my presentation, I faced my fear and I was able to overcome it.
That particular experience marked a lot in my life because it becomes a turning point for me. I then Begin to see self doubt as am opportunity for me to grow and to have self discovery. I becomes triggered to challenge all my negative thoughts asking myself if they were based on reality or it was all about the manifestation of my fears. I begin to mend amend and started seeing my mistake as experience and not as failures.
I begin to understand that self doubt is still part of my journey as human but is no longer the dominant voice in my head again but I have learned to accept it and move on with my life. I have come to understand that self doubt is s natural part of life learning process
Amazing lessons I have come to realize is the importance of self compassion. Whenever I begin to feel that am beginning to struggle back again with self doubt , I will simply remind myself that it is okay to be imperfect in as much as am human. I have learnt to always treat myself well so should I also do in times when self doubt shall arise. I have come to accept my emotions, my life experiences and to always support myself
I have come to understand the value of asking for help and support when needed. Talking to people, friends and this actually expose me to new perspective and to have a lot of new insight. It also remind me that am not alone in this journey and similarly a lot of people have faced such challenges even ones which are bigger and they were also able to overcome all
Even as I know that in this journey of self doubt, it may arise again but I am better equipped than I was before, even as I have come to realize the signs, challenges and to always focus on my strength
Overcoming self doubt isn't about eliminating it entirely, it is all about learning to live with it. It is about recognizing that it is a natural part of the journey, and that it's okay to be imperfect. In all I have found my sense of freedom and empowerment.
A picture of me again taking with my infinx smart 7
