After more than a day of suffering from over stimulation caused by Caffeine I was able to sleep relatively longer. What I was aiming for was to get some sleep and dream or attain the REM sleep, just enough to say that my brain had an ample rest and ready to tackle the day ahead.
First of all why I am still using Caffeine capsules if it would disturb my life in a way that it is affecting the sleep aspect? Again I have a different body now, it no longer used to react to dialysis as before because my blood pressure just crashes down if I would not use Caffeine which makes my blood pressure relatively higher so that I can survive my dialysis and achieve a much better cleaning work for my blood, that is why.
The overstimulation aspect is just the thing of a compromise that I have to now manage so that it won't hurt my body. It is good that I can use something that would help me relax and help me with sleeping otherwise things will really be bad for me.
There are so much complications that I have to manage now and in my life from my financial capacity and spending to managing how my dialysis routine would turn-out is really complicated.
The only difference now is that at least I can earn some money online unlike other dialysis patients where they are just dependent on their relatives considering my situation where the complication of bones aspect made it harder for me financially to bear with the expenses. So there is a constant worry in my mind that soon all my money will get used up leaving me in pain and dying a lingering death.
That is why I am working when everybody else is sleeping, using most of my waking hours wanting to be fruitful because I haven't gotten much time left because of my health issues.
Anyway I had a satisfactory sleep after sometime of being wide-wake for more than a day of overstimulation. I may have been doing it wrong but I do have to survive my dialysis. I actually had a vivid dream and it is understandable, too bad I had forgotten about it, if only we can just write those dreams down then that would be awesome.
Now that my brain had let out its steem I am now confident that I will not get crazy. I know the value of sleep for having a better mental health as I had witnessed with my eyes how a person with lack of sleep just goes crazy and get institutionalized because of that. That is why I am making it a point to sleep even for a few minutes and doesn't fight it off because our bodies unfortunately have to rest particularly our brain by sleeping.