These past few days, I was taken aback because of the bad news that I was included in the Temporary Lay Off List of Employees. We will only be notified when to start in a fresh or probably an existing Line Of Business that would need a whole bunch of workforce. No-Work-No-Pay. Duration of this employment status? - Indefinite.
Who cares?
Instead of getting sad, I became glad because I will now have time to focus on these two amazing platforms making my life really colorful each day.
There was this newbie who was introduced and shared his introductory post. OMG! He looked like my father. Of course, the usual me who would not hesitate to post a comment of a warm and genuine welcome became more interested in this person.
As days go by, I have just noticed myself that I was really motivated to be in this group that I even spent more time with them than being with the team that I should be watching over and pushing them to be active.
Yes, I am extremely open to post everything here and be transparent so that everyone would know the real deal. I'm just a nobody so who would care what I think and what I feel.
I guess I just needed some time off and say goodbye for now. I was just saddened because one of my friends got recently on-boarded here. Now her friend is already causing a havoc on the most active country-wide group on HIVE.
A message to my friend: "You will be able to stand on your own my friend. I know your capabilities". And also to the ones I have invited here. You know who you all are.
This peculiar feeling is really inhibiting me as happiness always sparks my day to day life. Every-time this person asks something about anything. This gladness that I feel while I do the walk-through is exhilarating.
But then it is all wrong!
This madness should be stopped at once.
It should come to a standstill before it goes any deeper.
Then the drama begins when I tried to ignore this person. But darn he's so stubborn!
I tried to do anything that would prevent me from seeing this person but gosh he's both on a group where I should always be at. I tried my best to still compose myself. What should I do to avoid this person? I tried to portray a bad-ass b*tch so that this would finally end (In which it really came out naturally) YES! N-A-T-U-R-A-L-L-Y!
The reason I have to leave!
Not to mention it's kinda incestuous!
Was it Ghosting?
Though there wasn't any formal Goodbye's I left because I don't want this newbie lost his opportunity being acknowledged by others that would hinder to his success in this platform.
Leaving without saying goodbye.
A friend told me adamantly when I asked if I did the right thing. His response was: “of course it’s not ok! That is SO rude.”
God! I know, Do not slap that fact to my face!
What I meant, if it's ok that I created some ways just to totally avoid this person.
I guess I was already successful ending it totally once and for all. At what cost? Ruining my career at first hand when I am only getting started just like them?
Much to my dismay, and of-course regrets followed. But I have to be firm on my stand. If people will dislike me for what I did then I should just wander this opportunity on my own (with few people on my side whom I really know).
This post is not even trying to justify the wrong I have done because I know certainly that I did a mistake. If that's what you call it when it only started with an uncontrollable feeling(s).
But one thing is certain. This goodbye is not Sayonara which means a "forever"!
I always welcome people to walk along with me to be successful in this journey. If there would come a time that our paths should cross again and be real friends then why not? (asa ka pa ghorl!) HOPYA PA MORE!
Kuya Eagle @eagleriggs, don't worry! Ang dami nila po jan susuporta sa iyo!
Thankful to have met some really supportive people.
It's not the goodbyes that hurt, but the flashbacks that would follow.
How lucky I am to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard.
It has been @fycee saying farewell.
