I've never had trouble writing; It's always seemed easy to pour my thoughts out onto paper or the computer and, if anything, I've often got too much to say. Today though...
I've been sitting here looking at a blank page on my computer for a half hour or so. I'm trying to begin my dad's eulogy but can't seem to start. It's not like the words are not within me, they certainly are, more that I don't know how to summarise my dad's life in a succinct manner, one suitable for me to read at his funeral service in a week.
I'm always quick to offer people advice on writing so it's quite ironic I've had so much trouble today, although I'll admit I'm fatigued and probably over emotional which could be causing the blockage.
I was up all night last night, I just couldn't sleep, and had all sorts of thoughts and memories running through my head from the life I had with my dad and I thought it would be easy to put them down, but I have struggled.
It will come though, and will write words that honour my father, show him respect and that celebrate the life he created.
I have had so many messages and calls from people offering their condolences, many who shared an anecdotal story or two they recall of my dad, and it has been really nice to see people volunteering such amazing thoughts and respect his way; It speaks highly of my dad that he touched so many people, and I know he would be humbled.
I know the words will come, and what I write will be the some of the most open, honest and forthright words I have ever written, just as it was when I wrote my mum's eulogy. I hope to do my dad proud, to represent my family well, and to leave those listening with an indelible impression of my father.
I'm nervous about reading at his service, I know I will struggle to get through it from an emotional perspective, but I have decided to find the courage as I know my father would do so. I think it seems right for me to stand there and honour him personally, no matter how difficult it may be to get through. I will take heart from words my dad once spoke to me:
"Galen, just do your best. It will change between moments may be different in happy or sad times, but in all circumstances simply deliver your best and you will never suffer self-judgement or regret."
Thanks dad, I will, as you always did.
On another (happier) note...This weeks' #weekend-engagement post topic was announced yesterday...The prize pool is now 130 hive, the biggest yet! It's a drawing topic in honour of my dad who was an amazing artist. Don't worry, you don't need to be...Take a look here for the post and the entry requirements, which are few.
I hope you're all having a great weekend.
Design and create your ideal life, don't live it by default - Tomorrow isn't promised.
Be well
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