"FEAR" ,that name alone makes us tremble. I believe everyone single person on earth has a fear as it's a natural response.
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I have a whole lot of fears but my biggest fear is the fear of losing a loved one this includes my family and friends ,the thought of it brings shiver to my spines ,it's horrible to think of how life will be if that person no longer existed ,the anxiety hits different.
When I was in junior secondary school, my dad was ill , all my life I've never seen him like that before ,I was a boarding school student so while he was ill I had to return to school as It was a new term,that was literally one of the worst period of my life , I felt that if I left for school I won't meet him when I return.
Phones when not allowed were not allowed in school ,hence I couldn't reach out to know how he was doing . I was so broken I didn't know what to do ,I wasn't participating in school activities, my grade dropped terribly . At that time of my life they was literally nothing to be happy about, I experienced my first depression at that stage ,I was always seen crying,I barely ate and everyone kept on wondering what was wrong with me.
I assumed that if anything happened to my dad my mom won't let me know while I was at school cause she'll assume it will distract me ,little did she know I was already overthinking things in my head . I couldn't wait for the semester to come to an end so I can go home and see my daddy, believe me the feeling was horrible.
Sometimes I feel like I won't be able to move on if my loved ones pass away .Most times if my parents are travelling especially by road ,I'll remain tensed till they safely arrive to their destination.
A friend of mine describes it as the "fear of the unknown" in other words the fear of not knowing what's going to happen next and as humans we always find a way to create scenes concerning the future in our head .
We all have people we love so much ,and can't afford to see anything happen to them ,hence
the only way to overcome this fear is to think more about the present I mean the things currently happening in your life and let the future do It thing . also I try to distract myself by spending my time trying to change things in my power such as my attitude and actions .
Fear is a natural response to our anticipations and death itself is inevitable .Someone said the best remedy is to face it ,well I don't think anyone really wants to face this one .
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