No doubt it was always beautiful, sweet, and melancholy. And in those days, the smile I had was like a rainbow, that is, at any point you look at me from, you will equally see my smiling face, as if it was not going to end, honestly, it was exactly the feelings.
Truth to be told, i didn’t know what i had then, maybe, i might been toying with her emotions at some points, which she didn’t like, yet the extent the relationship consumed my heart was joyful, also, i did not for once think about how I will really feels if things goes south. Yes, when the not so good discussion’s start to pop up, I did everything under my control to change the topic everyday, but it was just not easy to do that, because it was heavy than my weight.
So, I had to drop it, so that to save my chest, although my heart suffers, and that was when my heart began to do me as if it was not my own. My eyes wanted to cry a river, but you know what!, it can be very hard to see the tears of a man, some of us at times, might be really dying inside, but the physical courage is always hard to let go.
I am not different in this traits, I guessed, that was the first time i was really feeling that way.
When my brother came to visit me, he could observe without been told that something was wrong somewhere, and he asked, I thought to be able to cover things up, and pretend like nothing ever happened, but I was not tough enough to hold it, and when I talked about it with him, it was relieving to vent out the hearth breaking, because as at that moment, it was just like a burden to me.
Yet, after a while, I came to realize that it was just as it was meant to be, some roads has an entry point, but what makes me felt bad the most was the statement, that, “it is over between us” This statement makes me looks stupid, I would have like a reasonable method of going separate ways, why insult for God sake😄🤣, why making it look as if it was a fight 😄🤣, and somebody must frown face, all these were what leave’s an unforgettable memories in me.
Just imagine!, something that start very sweet end up in a bitter style, where a party feel’s regrets of getting into.
To be Frank, if it was easy, I would have erased that word’s out of my head, but I can’t. Therefore, each time I see a related photo in my phone, that memories of hearing that particular statement came back to life.