I'm jovial and playful, often making others laugh. I play a lot, I even overplay, I don't check the age barriers either, whether I'm senior to the person or I'm younger to the person, but I try to keep my jokes under caution and depending on who I'm interacting with. And I've never met a person or a group of people and don't make them laugh. most of the time, some persons just see me walking close to them and they will just start laughing. I can even change a funeral scene to a place of laughter, there are no dull, sad moments around me. I'm always a happy person no matter the challenges that keeps pushing me, keeps dragging me, I always make sure I put smiles on my face even unconsciously, I make people smile, I make people feel the words and the sign of happiness. Well, it may also interest you to know that I'm a quiet person,
This I do in my educational field, With all of these jokes I do, I don't do it randomly to people who are not familiar with me, I don't do it to people that I'm not that close to, even though I can meet strangers in a room and just make them smile, maybe at shopping malls or other meetings, but in academic cycle I don't, I don't talk beyond my clique of friends. Many people see me that I'm too quiet, some say ah,"this guy is quiet", like "this guy is quiet", but inwardly I know, I'm never what they are trying to say.
I'm also an emotional person, very emotional, and when I was younger it made me cry, whatever thing somebody say I take it to heart and I will keep suffering. I can cry for hours because I was a very shy type, had phobia for many things, everything seems scary to me and every bit of what is said from someone's mouth I just feel it as "wow, am I really worth this thing?" and it's like I'm this thing this person is saying, is true o! Because my emotions were easily talked down and my grandmother will always say "they are trying to make you feel less, that's why they want to talk you down, they know you are more than them". so I try to do things that will not affect my emotions and I think now I am good to go, I think I can control my emotions to a level.
And not only being an emotional person too, I have a hurt temper especially for things I dislike, for things I hate, especially lies. So I can easily react towards lies, I easily react towards disrespect. So whatever anybody does and I find lie in it, I lose trust immediately. And not only losing trust, I think I wouldn't flow well with the person and I just wish we part ways and I would not love to work with such person again. And cooling off my temper, I think I am not violent, not violent at all. So I just walk away if I am angry with anybody, I just walk away quietly. I don't fight with weapons, I don't fight with blows, I don't fight with my legs. I fight from my head by distancing myself, giving some space and trying to be the best I can for myself. And all of this happens because I am a selfless person, I used to think more of people than myself, so people began taking advantage of that.
I can even starve myself to make people happy. So when I discover all of this in deep right inside me, I was feeling hurt and I discovered the opposite were not feeling the same. So I just step up and do it moderately. So when vexed I tend to just swallow it most times and walk away. Well, I love adventures, I love exploring new things, whatever I don't know, I am very open to learning, even from subordinates, from mentors, I am open to learning. Beit formal, informal education, whatever it takes, beit skill acquisition. I think even though I don't have passion for that thing, but I feel if I know that thing, there will be a need for it someday, somewhere, somehow, that there is nobody immediately to carry out that task and it can salvage even a community. So whatever I see, I watch,I can learn even from watching, you don't need to tell me. From watching, I will know the kind of tools that are needed for a particular kind of job. Anywhere at all, I can fit in as long as I see you doing that thing, I fit immediately and I will carry it out perfectly.
I think I like myself like this.....
but looking forward to make amends in any aspect am getting it wrong....