5" x 8", Pen and Ink, 7/28
The Querant is an Angel. She is in Prayer. Her praying hands swayed off to the right - toward the Sun. It's about her relationship to the world. She can't quite pull it off. She is always on the fringe - an outsider looking in - even with the outsiders, she's an outsider. The meaning of her being an Angel is not that she is perfectly good all the time, but rather that she prays all the time for help. That's what she has to do in order to stay balanced in this whirl'd. The page is almost completely halved - with the Sun at her right and the Moon at her left but the Sun has more room in the picture which means that this is the glaring reality of her situation - that she must continue to strive for balance and learn to BE in the world. She must dig down deep and learn how to connect to her True Self to find the abilities that she has not yet uncovered because they are hidden behind layers of childhood trauma.
There are 3 spirals - in the Sun, The Halo and her Belly - making up the triple Helix which reveals that this is a multi-lifetime expedition that she is on.
Sun > Crown > Sacral - meaning - Cosmic Energy channeling through Crown to Creative Center - Intuition > Thoughts > Action... but it's External as well as internal so it's multi-lifetimes which just proves she's on her path.
A lot of times, a path like this one, the person will try to fight the path it'self thinking it's wrong somehow, when they see their "fellow travelers" in life with a much easier path - No - for some - this IS the path.
It doesn't matter to the Creator how long it takes her to evolve - that is up to her soul to decide. But as much work as she has done, she still has a lot more to do. 3 Stars and the Moon - An indicator of the Trinity of Intuition > Thoughts > Action around the Unknown Substance of the Moon -
The Mainstream Narrative likes to tell us that the Moon is an object which reflects the light of the Sun but somehow that doesn't make sense - it is a Mystery - thus, that which is still a Mystery is the Source of her Power.
Once it becomes known in this realm - it becomes a commodity, and therefore it is cheapened. The whirl'd is Materialistic - but she is not. She clings to Nature because as a trauma victim being her authentic self - is her safeguard to sanity and stability - Nature/God is her only ally.
Her legs and feet are misshapen and really completely unusable. Her left knee is bent in kneeling and her right knee and foot are half bent but both legs are contorted for a person who could attempt to stand up. She is stunted due to childhood trauma. But this is her path.
The deepest darkest part of the Auragraph is below her womb, in an upside down heart shape - this indicates the nature of her childhood trauma and violation... "evil is the opposite of live".
The left side of her face and the right side are almost 2 different people. In fact, the left side of her altogether is a completely different character than the right side. The left side, dark, surrendered - the right side is still striving - in the light and her face has an arched brow - the chakra points are visible - it is the contrived personality that the subconscious created to protect the True Self in a trauma situation.
Her left side is in darkness, the Divine Feminine - the Future. The future is not yet revealed because of the work she must do in the present. There is a winged heart in her left chest behind her left arm - which reveals that she is of service to the others who travel her same path. Her path is one of service, hence the kneeling but her right side has not fully surrendered. There is still more work to be done.
What is that thing that looks like it is her right leg? Is it actually a Walrus? And if it were a Walrus what would that mean? Wisdom, Strength and Adaptability... it is sort of nebulous - it is between a Walrus and a leg with folds of fabric - so she is growing into a person of Wisdom, Strength and Adaptability...
As an adult child of trauma, The Querant has used spiritual means to survive all this time and slowly evolve. Even though she is stunted and has not yet reached her goal, she is slowly making progress around the Spiral. And what does she have to compare herself to? Not the Materialistic zombies of the 21st Century...people who claim material success in the whirl'd as we now know it are not usually people of character.
She is a woman of character - because if she abandons her True Self to be a materialist, she stands the chance, as a survivor of trauma, of complete disassociation and therefore, insanity. Much better to be "alone" and be a fringe-dweller and be True to her Inner Self.
What is the Prescription? I recommend that she practice a spiritual path, deep observation of her reactions and actions - using the literature from ACoA - as well as the fellowship in-person if it is available.
I have also found that the Emotion Code by Dr. Bradley Nelson, works wonders - she can learn to do it herself by listening to the Audiobook and by downloading the E-Book free online or buying it.
The Emotion Code Heart Wall will take the sting out of the responses to the the reactions of the Adult Child so that she can process her experiences and hear God's Still Small Voice within her.
Prayer, Meditation, Feeling in her body. Havening, Self-Soothing Techniques and especially The Loving Parent Guidebook will be especially helpful. Try to read that one with a friend and follow the exercises.