Recently @meno did his post about "not going anywhere", and of course it reminded me of my previous one. My power down is done now - so whatever people are going to think about a move like this - people who don't seem to read most things I write anyway - they are probably already thinking it.
@thecrazygm has more HP than @ecoinstant now, and I am super proud of him. Over the last six months he has gained the discipline and determination to not only "write", but document what he is working on in any moment - the excitement, wonder and occasionally even frustrations.
I also use HIVE like this - "just keep writing", as Dory the Fish might say and I think more "builders/developers" could find a way to encounter actual value in this strategy.
Which means, I will never get the "high score"; I didn't really thinking about it, but since I am continuously posting a super leveraged KE ratio is impossible, since I will always be left with the rewards earned in the 13 weeks from a full powerdown. And it seems I have reached that asymptote - 17.99.
"It is what it is"
Unusually high proxy-backing aside, I'm only slightly sad to have sold off my "personal" HP to build my dream toolbox on HIVE. There is a certain pride (ego perhaps?) to being a builder - and maybe that is something that I suffer with. But I am working with others - I have found people that enjoy hanging around me! I am excited about the future, and "we are still here".
But I need these tools, for my own projects on HIVE - pretty much no matter what anyone else does. Other teams are doing good things - check the HIVE Swarm of Swarm update for example. But none of them is doing what we are doing. They are doing their things - which is wonderful (in my opinion).
I'm doing my thing
I have come to realize many things over the last three months. The "politics" on HIVE, for example, are heavily focused on face-to-face meet ups at HIVEfest. This is a reality, that only when people meet in public do they start "trusting" or paying attention to what someone is doing. I noticed it first hand, I suddenly learned what the people I was meeting were up to - what they were building, why they thought it was the most important thing to be building right now, etc etc. A face, for a name.
I'm not sure if I have it in me to do all that. I suppose it happens over time, so we will see what happens. For now I am in Guatemala, I was in Guadalajara. But eventually I need to go home, and stay there for a while. Travelling is expensive, energetically at least - but also monetarily. "The secret to my success" has been low cost of living; that is basically incompatible with travelling around the world.
I'm sure everyone is doing the best they know how. And its just human to put a lot weight on "people" over "users". Its so obvious - once you see it.
So, we have made some noise, and a few friends. We travelled a bit and build 20+ tools (plus the project builder kit!. And now I have 17.99 KE, and I am not sure that I want to do anything about that - for many reasons, one of which is I still need the cash. We are burning that cash - less than any one I know but still, runway burns. And - such is life. There are a lot of people out there in much worse circumstances, at least we are having fun.
But I am starting to think about my bananas and pineapples, not in a homesick way but in a "I need some cashflow" way. Some moments I want to disappear, but that might just be because I am living in a hotel. Let's see what happens. Maybe high KE is "no big deal" because everyone who "uses it" will look deeply into the issue and the account.