“To overcome fear is the quickest way to gain your self-confidence.”―Roy T. Bennett
Bare Faced😊
Hello, mga Ka-Hive Keepers! It's @daenerhys here again. How are you guys? I hope you are all doing great and having an amazing day. These past couple of days, I haven't been able to post any blogs due to the busyness of preparation as a school journalist and a contestant in the upcoming Area Presscon this month to be held in Cordova, Cebu. So for today's blog, I'm going to share with all of you about my flaws and insecurities that I have in myself.
As I stated in my previous introduction blog, I experienced a vehicular accident in Macaas, Catmon, Cebu in 2016. Those traumatic accidents I encountered slowly planted physical insecurities in me, which grew over time. I was only 16 years old at that time and not mature enough to face and accept any challenges that happened in my life. I was like a scared kitten hiding in my comfort zone and afraid to come out and face the judgement of others.
My face without any make-up, the scars are visible🥺
After the accident, I watched my reflection in the mirror, slowly judging myself for being ugly. My confidence is also slowly fading away. I was shy and conscious of myself when facing other people. I was afraid of judgements, and many 'what ifs' came up in my mind, like 'What if they're going to judge me because of what I look like now?' and 'What if they'll bully me because I have many scars on my face?'. As someone who's into the pageant and modeling world, I wasn't used to seeing myself as not presentable and confident enough to face the people that surround me. It was an unpredictable incident, but I can't help but cry that I almost lost my life because of the accident. Still, I am thankful to God for giving me this second life to live more in this world.
But there are times when I wish I were like other typical girls out there, enjoying their lives, confident in showing off and facing the people around them. Maybe even now, I feel some regret for what happened to me because I wasn't able to continue my career before, but I still feel blessed for the challenges that have happened in my life. I know that everything that has happened to me was a test and a blessing in disguise from God, testing my faithfulness and my strength after the storms I have encountered in my life.
After years of healing my inner self and rebuilding my confidence, I have already accepted everything and am always ready to face judgements and challenges. I have realized that life won't always go according to plan, and sometimes you just have to accept and go with the flow in order to heal and boost your confidence. And I am proud that I overcome this challenges that I've faced in the past. To someone who is like me, struggling and having insecurities to themselves. Let me give you some advice.
"Always remember that healing and gaining confidence is a journey, and it's okay to take small steps towards acceptance. Be patient with yourself and encourage yourself to see the beauty in every scars."
