Hello, my dear Hivers! I hope you're all doing well. I'm starting a new series in my blog called Dear Diary, an avenue where I share random, unfiltered thoughts and more personal blogs for you all.
Today's blog is about my hosting experience during one of our company events (see: A quick stay at Movenpick Hotel) around this time last month. Just so you know, i'm the type of person who prefers to stay low key in a crowd, and is happily observing people. Talking to a sea of people, more so hosting an event, has never been my forte. So when my manager asked me to co-host a company event, I freaked out. But how can i say no when it's part of our performance evaluation checklist? In the end, I accepted the challenge.
The event is a two day dynamic program which includes some workshops, talks from guests speakers, and a whole lot of interactive activities.
For my preparation, the most that i can do is prepare a script and be familiar with the program flow. Me and my co-host divided the spiels to lessen the workload.
Finally, the actual day of the event came. The number of guests are expected to be about 60 people all in all. I was very nervous the whole time that i wasn't able to eat well during lunch and dinner time. All the foods taste like metal to me. The first few part of the program went okay until we started having candid bloopers (haha). After that, it had a domino effect for the rest of the day. Its easy to fake things for a short period of time, but 2 days of hosting? My social battery really went negative.
During day 2, i felt relief that the event is almost coming to an end. I thought to myself that regardless of what will happen today, by 5 pm, im going home and this will be over. And finally, it did. We survived the 2 day event- alive!
My co-host and I are both amateur hosts and it really shows. I'm just grateful that our audience is forgiving. They let us be (haha).
To say that i did not enjoy the experience is an understatement. Thru this experience, i now conclude that hosting, and all other speaking engagement, is not for me.
I always have this mindset where I consider my workplace as a play ground, a place where I can try new things and explore whatever it is that i haven't tried yet. Because 5 years (or 3 years) from now, no one will remember my mistakes, the ones that didn't affect anyone; no one will remember my hosting stint during this event.
But I will.
And its up to me to decide what this experience means to me. I choose to see it with humility, that for once in my life, I was courageous enough to try something to this extreme. This experience is definitely one for the books and I'm very thankful for this opportunity.
That's it for today's blog. See you in my next one!
Sending some love and light
Love, Jane