I was an elementary student when I first learned about painting. We were taught how to blend and mix colors, what are the primary colors, the types of brushes, different kinds of paints and canvas to be used, and that it's okay to get dirty when you are doing your craft.
I still have a vivid memory of how happy I was when I do a painting. I am using water-based paint and canvas, which is the basic :) The first portrait that I learned was nature (just like the main cover). I am really amazed at how I stroke the brush and blend the colors from the sky down to the sea.
I only focused on painting different types of nature because it is relaxing. At a young age, my imagination is unlimited for me to create a good piece for display in our small house. That's my goal, it's an achievement for me! every time I came home from class, I always make sure that my parents have seen my art.
Months are passing and I already painted a lot, I notice that my ART wasn't appreciated. They only kept it inside our dark closet, has never been displayed or shown to the visitor. I feel very sad at that time because I want to pursue this hobby to become my profession. When my family separated, I lost all of my paintings and I don't know who disposed of them.
When I entered college my first choice is Architecture. The thought of getting an Architectural course kept me excited because I like doing art and construction at the same time. Unfortunately, it didn't happen too. We don't have enough money to support my college (considering the project and requirements) if I will pursue Architecture.
So instead of Architecture, I got BSBA Marketing at Pamantasan ng Lungsod ng Maynila. This is the only available slot when I returned to college because I didn't file Leave Of Absence when I stopped. I was upset but it's better than nothing since I got a full scholarship.
For now, I am a Marketing by profession. I have no regret naman that I pursue this career. I was able to practice more arts by doing various advertisements (digital and print). I was able to think out of the box and be more creative and strategic for the company I am working with.
Sometimes, I am still thinking if I could bring back my old hobby... to start PAINTING again. I tried the number paint this lockdown and it looks well OF COURSE because it has a pattern to follow. I am stuck with my curiosity! I resist if I can do it again. I am afraid of the output. Maybe my painting before is not really good but for me, it looks nice. I'm in deep regret that I wasn't able to keep those I've painted.
I am also thinking if I could enroll in Architecture. I want to learn something new. I don't know if it's still profitable if I will study Architecture despite my age. It will take 4 to 6 years before I can practice and start earning. I don't know if it's still worth it at age 37.
To my readers, your advice would be greatly appreciated. Do I need Soul searching? Am I in a midlife crisis? Do I need to buy painting materials and check if I can still make it? Am I a frustrated Architect or a frustrated Painter? If you were in my shoes, what will you do?
But one thing for sure, I want to make one portrait to be displayed in our room.
