What's on my mind? What's on my mind? What's on my mind? Actually, I don't even know what exactly my mind wants to do, what its desires are, or what exactly needs to be done to satisfy its thirst. All I know is I am being driven through its madness with no planned destinations, maybe it's the best to go with sometimes. But how long? Maybe as far as it takes me without any obstacles, what then? I don't know.
It tends to knock which is forbidden for me and doesn't respond to the guest that is willing to come in. Why so? I couldn't even understand myself, just hanging with this, with the hope to reach a conclusion, maybe I would barge into that door or let the other one come in to heal. Also, there is a possibility of escaping both of the situations and seeking for something else, something different, something to ease myself.
I have a bad habit, a habit of postponing things that try to bug me, unless it's unavoidable I keep on ignoring that, and at a certain point, it hits me so hard that I come back to act seriously. That's my mind, tends to be lazy, wants to be lazy, and it's actually very lazy. My mind is doing the same right now, piling up things, piling up the emotions with some shitty plans to move on and waiting for them to explode, when? IDK, It's a time bomb without the timer.
Got up from the chair for my bed, devices are off and closed my eyes for 2 minutes just to know what's going on in my mind. As I said, it's just a pile of things that I am trying to avoid, nothing else. Oh yes, I fell asleep while figuring out what was going on in my mind soon after closing my eyes. Yeah, it's saying I need some sleep too.