Have you ever sat down for a second or few minutes in silence to reflect on your love life?
I recently saw a news on how a very young girl committed suicide because she failed her exam, and it just got me thinking... has it really gotten to this? I don't know what the girl has passed through in life, her challenges, struggles, and everything about her. What may have led her to this? Was she maybe trying to do it not to kill herself and ended up dying, or was that just it?
Self love!
Many of us believe and say to ourselves; I love myself, but do you? There are obvious things we do to ourselves that we will never do to those around us. We attack ourselves when we know deeply how we tried our best. If you who went through the battles, felt the pain and sorrows could still do such a thing to yourself... I... I don't know if that can be love because to me, It seems not.
That sort of love is blurry. Maybe that's why you can't see what you've accomplished even if you weren't able to get the result you worked for.
I have been in situations where I have seen what others have accomplished, and I harm myself. Not with a blade or anything physical, but something emotional and sharper than a sword... words! But as I grew, I learned that love isn't just about loving myself when I become victorious in what I do. It is more about loving myself and saying good words to myself when failure comes.
Ever since I learned this, I have always applied it to my everyday life. Therefore, whenever those dampening feelings want to arise, I remind myself of what I had to go through that day and never compare anyone else to myself. And, since I know better, I know truly loving myself despite my shortcomings is much better than stabbing myself in the guts like every other person who does not know my life journey.
So, fuzzy love? Vote for it. If you'd spend some time alone and reflect on your life's journey and your actions and inactions to your failures, you'd see if you truly appreciate what you've gone through and who you've become through them.
And this... this brings me to the song, You're gonna be okay" by Brian and Jenn Johnson.
I like the first lyrics. Maybe this and that is just all you got, and it came crashing.... surely everything is meant to fall apart you included. But hold on and give yourself a fuzzy love regardless and live on.
So whenever you find yourself in such moments and your hand can still hold on to your phone, I recommend listening to this masterpiece. But if not, be reminded of how you started. After all, you are the only one who can give yourself that fuzzy love before anyone else.
Have a wonderful Friday!
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Still yours truly,
Balikis.
Thanks for reading and listening.
Peace be unto those who crave it and more to those who chase it away.