The weekend was pretty rough for me. I had a bundle of unpleasant experiences come upon me, and my only option was to rummage through them all. I was imbalanced in the most disorienting way, yet I couldn't shirk my responsibilities; I do hold a stack of them, but I do not consider them burdensome—except one, though.
It was all a phase anyway. At least, that's what I think, and that's how I chose to see it. Somehow, I have conditioned myself to not be fazed by undesired events. As long as they are not fatal and I can recover from them soon enough, I take them as yet another thing to learn and never repeat certain mistakes.
So when I felt really low and thought hard about how to escape how I was feeling, there weren't that many things I could come up with. It was then that I realised how much I have had to learn things on my own and that I had never really had mentorship before. So it felt like a puzzle on how to seek guidance on how I was feeling. I couldn't exactly provide to myself what I would to others in similar situations.
Thankfully, I do have amazing friends that I rely on. I try to do this at times when things feel really low for me. In conversations with them, I'd want to listen to them talk about their lives to bring me up to speed and also draw from their joy in the blissful experiences that they may have had lately. Somehow, it helps.
In the midst of the chaos, something kept me together and in a reflective state. I stumbled on it coincidentally, and it just fit perfectly as part of what I needed. And then the feeling I get whenever I have it around came on again, and it was just apt at that time.
It's soothing feeling it brings is special. The intricacies involved in the changes through the paradoxial composition of the complexity of arrangement, yet simplicity in its solemnity, are something I would term divine.
I have always adored its artist for his brilliance and level of intelligence when he creates. How he communicates stories, emotions, and power through musical notes is something so special about him that's not common with most musicians.
This isn't the first time I'll be talking about him here. Journeying through music with Jacob Collier is usually an everyday experience for me. It had been a while since I did that when this weekend came, and I stumbled on the scintillating sensation that is Fix You.
It's not an original song of his. Fix You is a song by Coldplay. It's a deep and beautiful song. Jacob Collier's spin on it, however, takes it to a whole new level.
Through it all, I had it in my ears and on repeat. It somehow provided calm and tranquility. Until I could finally find a resolution to the ongoing matters, it was there to help me align my thoughts.
Trust that I am listening to it all through as I write this. It's something that I would share with people that I care about and love for them to enjoy if they'd be interested in it. And for the same reason that I wanted people to enjoy it for themselves, I took it out to X and shared this post (tweet):
https://x.com/_olujay/status/1733651552814920054?s=20
When I first found the song on YouTube, I realised that he did the songs specially for the foundation that was dedicated to helping lives, especially during the pandamic. Knowing that he recorded it with such purpose always made the song feel more than ordinary to me.
A beautiful song like this shouldn't be under the bushel. So I bring it to you in hopes that you will feel the song the way that I do when you listen to it and enjoy it.
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