I’m ecstatic as I write this. Some sixteen hours ago, I felt like the whole world was against me. Too much to do. Too little time. I was spotting dark circles from nights without sleep, poring on notes and reading/using my screen for hours on end. My eyes were twitching and hurting from the inside out, and I kept remembering the words of my closest virtual friends, when I poured out my frustrations to them a few days ago, and they individually told me to calm down. Take things in stride. Take each day one at a time.
What I found amusing was the fact that they’ve all been in similar situations where I told them to breathe, relax and every other thing they are now telling me. I find this amusing because I realize that when it comes down to it, we may not practice what we preach. Not because we don’t believe or we were pretending to live by it, but because when it comes down to it, to our daily lives and reality, we most times forget that this is what we tell other people to do. That this is what we should do.
And so when I came back to the dorms by 6am, exhausted beyond belief from my all night reading in class and sad cause I felt like I was still behind and didn’t cover nearly as much as I’d have wanted, I did some quick work, got on with my workouts and afterwards took a shower. I slept for a few hours when I woke up, I felt considerably lighter and set out back to class to study.
This time, I did things differently. I was specific about what I intended to cover. Writing down concisely what I hoped to achieve at the end of my study. Then I took five, deep, calming breaths. And I began to study. I studied for about four hours and I only realized this when I looked at the time and saw that I had been studying that long. I barely even noticed because my thoughts were flowing and everything just felt right.
I was so joyous that I had a spring in my step and a swing in my gait. It felt like I’d cracked a long-time encryption or discovered the secret to world dominance or something equally wild. And as I made my way back to the dorms, I caught sight of a tree. I pass this tree every day but for some reason it caught my attention today. And that’s when I remembered that even the previous day, it had no flowers and today, it had sprouted flowers.
It resonated deeply within me how swiftly things change. One day all hope seems lost and the very next day, the clouds are open and there’s a bright ray of sunshine bursting through. One day you think this particular way and the next day, you have a whole new perspective. I thought of all the times I’ve doubted myself and felt lacking. This tree made me realize why I should only worry for today and not tomorrow.
Every moment, I’m growing. And I’m continuously learning. Being more self aware and more intentional about everything I’m doing. Because you see, I realize every day the things I’m going about the wrong way and what I need to change, also what I’m doing that I could be better at. I just had a goal and read aimlessly but when I became specific about my objectives, I began to see clearer. Just like that tree that is intentional about its existence. That lives just for today and doesn’t worry for the morrow because everything would work out in its own time.
Speaking of growth, let’s not forget to power up and grow our portfolios as well as the Hive ecosystem. Happy A New Month, everyone. Live only for the moment and let tomorrow take care of itself.
Jhymi🖤
Images are mine.
