Being a doctor in Bangladesh is one of the most frustrating ordeal one can go through. And so it is quite fitting to assume that life seems to be caving in more often than not, and you would be correct to assume so. Hence it is also fitting that I will find myself trying to motivate myself day in day out to keep going, to keep hitting the grindstone.
With me it is highly about applying patience. In a joke of a country like mine, if one doesn’t practice extremes of passion - you’ll die laughing (or crying, same thing) at the jokes life can play on you! So I am constantly affirming myself and anyone who comes to me in despair of someone treating them unfairly that - we can only control our own actions and not what others choose to do with the power their social status brings them. No good deed goes unnoticed and unrewarded. I strongly believe sooner or later every good intention you have had will be rewarded and will come back to us in ways we wouldn’t expect.
It is not as easy said than done. And for that I have grown a pretty thick skin - a rhino would be proud of how thick my skin have gotten. Literally nothing (almost) gets to me like the way the one saying it intended. I have kept telling myself this so much that we can not control the action of others so stop worrying about it - I actually don't even care what they think if they are not my immediate family.
And yet for all my showboating, some people can just be really, really cruel and either extremely wicked or plain stupid. And in comes my hobby of sleeping shit off! No kidding! A rhino's skin can still be pierced with an arrow strong enough, with a bullet fast enough. And so when the peer pressure seems a bit too much, and life just becomes a tad bit too hectic to handle - I sleep! Not to escape from reality - but as a hobby! It sounds strange, I know. Don’t worry, I still have some hobbies like normal people...you know, reading books, playing the guitar etc. But this strange hobby of sleeping shit off works like hogwarts magic. What seemed so unbearable, starts to seem like not a big deal after I have had a nice long sleep at a very odd time of the day. I think the effect this has on me is, it gives me a sense of power that only I control what I do, when I do regardless of what society deems appropriate.
And when a man has nothing to fear, he can become extremely dangerous.
