Isn't it funny how things Pan out
Sometimes being alone i think is the answer to all our problems. Yes you get bored. Boredom breeds self reflection. Those moments where only your inner voice is talking to you. Asking questions that are drowned out by the crowd.
The crowd prevents what ever is inside you to surface. Where you are forced to face what ever it is that is troubling me. Being addressed stops the voice inside me. Mutes out questions even i don't know exists. The same though is I might start to like this feeling of being alone. Self sabotaging any progress i could have with someone or everyone around me.
I think I'm turning into s bag influence...
Words are powerful. They have power. Use all and the world can be moved. Used incorrectly and it can destroy even the wielder.
I need to keep that in mind always because i have lots to say. Minding mine own has never been my strong suit, especially when I'm inebriated. Sometimes to much spoken out of context or taken out of context the choice needs to be better so there are no loose parts that could hurt me or you.
But what does it all mean?
Often we come across events or things that need attention and highlighting so they can be fixed or done better. Time sure crawls to a stand still when you're left with nothing to do worthwhile. Or is that time wasted on useless endeavors
There are always opportunities to improve. There are even countless ways to make ends meet. All you have to do is stretch the truth to suit the mood. Only skillful is of words could do this.
These are not the droids you are looking for...
I'd say mindful of your words goes a long way. Even strangers are apt to lose sleep over errant words thrown at a moments notice. Meanings take on a whole new life when you're not thinking about the consequence with no context.
I say the best part in all of this is the up and down Rollercoaster ride.
We are all in this whether we like it or not and that's the hard truth. Sometimes even we'll intentioned words hurt those around me. I try to stop myself but it's am easy thing to do, mistakes. Lesson learned.
have i really learned it?
Only time will tell.
Just in. This post has taken me a week to compile and now this whole blocktrade return proposal. I've not read much into it. I mean i think i should because this affects everyone. Even me. And I'd be damned if I'm not informed.
Well it's been a few days since that last paragraph and I've yet to find more info on the return proposal. Is the lacks of trying that's brought on this failure on my part. Like they say promises made and not delivered are a sure sign of undisciplined character.
I don't like to display them but I'll own that which I'm displaying. Recognition is the first step in addressing one's failures.
