I was sitting in our school library, trying to review for our next quiz (on a different subject), but I couldn’t absorb any information. I know I’m feeling burnt out. I’ve been exhausted these past few weeks.
We just had our 4th pre-board exam yesterday, and it felt great to finally get a passing score. It’s been draining lately with school. We have weekly exams on top of everything else.
All I want right now is to rest for a long time.
But it feels weird, and I also feel guilty when I lay down on my bed, scrolling endlessly. It feels wrong to be doing nothing.
I know that taking a rest is normal, but sometimes it feels draining just lying down and doing nothing.
I want to explore. I want to travel. I think of going outside, spending some time with nature. I feel like I really need that break.
Next week, we’ll have another quiz and exam from our major subjects.
I just want to escape, even if it's only for a short time. But anyway, I only have a little longer to go because this is my last semester, and then I’ll finally graduate.
I hope I pass every subject so I can graduate and start doing the things I really want with some free time.
I’m writing this to express how I feel right now. Earlier, I was just feeling annoyed and frustrated with everyone. I know writing might help me process these feelings, instead of stress-eating (lol – I’m getting fat, too).
Anyway, since this is just a free write, sorry for the not-so-great structure of this post. I just needed to get it out of frustration, and I hope it helps to lift my mood.
I even reached the point where I didn’t want to use my phone, so I came to the library and tried using the school desktop. I think it’s helping a bit.
If you’re still reading this, thank you!