This is where I come in the morning. Sometimes before the sun comes out.
This is Radloff Park. It's a park with lots of trees where people walk their dogs or come to jog. It is the only place where I am really on my own; no one crowding me.
Somehow it's easier to pray when I'm here. Especially early in the morning.
Life isn't without its interesting things. I had a trip that ended near the beach in the Strand again. Since everyone started working again it were easy to find a parking.
When I got out I saw something interesting.
The an working on it said it took four days to get to this point.
Imagine the patience it takes to get it all done. I won't even try.
Life isn't all beautiful places and interesting things. This morning, after getting to Radloff I started struggling with a deep sense of loneliness. A next level kind of loneliness I never found before.
It puzzled me a little. I never have enough of a sense of belonging to feel lonely. That's just me. I'm never alone anyway.
The loneliness lifted after about two hours. It just dissapated, like an early morning fog and as it left I réalised it belonged to my darling wife. It makes me sad.
Things weren't good between us for a while. I tried to be supportive and understanding but I run from pain when it gets to be too much.
I'll have to find a way to make up and at least give her a little hope.
That's the thing about being an Empath. I can never walk away. Even when I don't see the ones I love I'll always feel what they do.
Getting away from the things that's overwhelming and mostly distracting. God is good to me.
This far I have been safe in places most people won't even go in with a police escourt. I will fear no evil.
I am hungry. I'm going to find something to eat.
I appreciate your support.
Live life to the fullest.