Notes from the life of an Empath - an unreal reality.

Maybe I'm just living a fantasy, or I simply don't get enough sleep.

It was almost midnight when I got to sleeping hoping to get some good rest. Then, to no surprise, I woke up just before five.

I felt it hanging over me like a warm mist. Just a feeling. A feeling that said, if I am not here all this nonsense will go away. I focused, thinking about my plans for the day and the things I am going to do to set a new path in motion. Then my wife turned and pushed in against me. I could feel her skin.

Then I realized what I planned for the day suddenly seemed grey and lifeless. My courage an motivation suddenly were gone. Just a few seconds of an emotion that did not fit in my life at all triggered my own emotions and with that all of my insecurities.

Whenever I read about being an Empath there is talk about protecting yourself and about cancelling the visiting energy. It's in the posts and in the videos and its a pain to me.

Mostly I don't see it coming. Just as Mario's fathers death were unannounced, most of other energies I take up from people comes without warning. Then within seconds it triggers my own emotions. Sometimes just draining me.

I shifted my mind to other things, trying to reconstruct the drive and enthusiasm for the day.

I dozed off again after the sun came out. Then just after nine I woke up to my granddaughters voice, "Thank you Grandpa". I smiled and sighed. She stays some distance from us and I knew she weren't close here. She were at the bank withdrawing money I transferred for them. Sometimes sensing someone else is good.

The day went far from planned. I am still trying to re-gear and get all the planning in place again.

Or maybe it's just in my mind.

Thank you for reading this far. I hope you have a beautiful day.