My health condition in my life took a 180-degree turn (after cancer) , so I must have a quieter life, with less stress and with plenty of rest, healthy recreation and above all ... GOOD SLEEP, lately I am suffering from sleep disorders, a situation that I attribute to the guards I do to turn on and off the appliances, AA, product of the constant electrical fluctuations in day and night hours in my house.

Oh, god this madness, this is altering my circadian cycle (light - dark) in my natural biology of 24 hours of sleep.

The voltage protectors, those appliances have become inefficient and often do not withstand the sudden changes in voltage due to the constant electrical fluctuations, this has consequences of my brain, which stays awake at night, and this unbalances my sleep, my sleep becomes intermittent, during the day I do not rest for my daily activities.

I live with my hair standing on end and my emotions running high

This has been happening to me after the pandemic and because of the acute crisis in the country where I live. It is clear to me that high doses of resilience are needed as a vital force to walk this path of so many atypical situations such as those that occur daily in my city... My God, but there are times when I break down because of so many hours of not sleeping and enduring the heat, especially at night.

The electricity generator I have I can no longer use it because the piped gas is failing and with gasoline its use becomes onerous for my pocket, and it is that it happens every day for 3 consecutive years after the general blackout of 2019 What generator withstands this daily? Not to mention the economy.

This keeps me hypervigilant

That is to say, I get alarmed easily, because of the tension I feel, in addition to anger and insomnia, and even decrease in my concentration, attention, memory and performance for my daily activities.

I am trying as much as possible not to look or search continuously for additional information on any subject related to thermoelectric plants in the state where I live. I am especially anxious at night to accept the feeling of uncertainty, nor do I know if I am willing to continue to tolerate all the unknowns of the current situation (especially those issued by government spokespersons in this country).

Furthermore, I need to restore my mental and functional health to protect my immune system and keep my defenses against disease high, especially so that cancer never returns to my humanity.

I need to sleep...I almost look like a zombie in the daytime.

Sleeping well is my free measure, hence the importance of being able to sleep at least 8 hours continuously to restore and have health, so I need to sleep well at least 6 hours. And thanks to this problem of basic services I feel that my insomnia, which is emotional thank God, is getting worse.

I must manage my emotions and external stressors ... but how, if I have no control over it and what causes me is to run out because of the heat, humidity and mosquitoes because I have to open the windows. To make matters worse, I have no water in the pipes to at least refresh myself.

My room (bedroom) I always keep it as my temple for relaxation to have a good quality of sleep and this is restorative, starting with respecting my bedtime, until Zuassssssssss!!!, without electricity you start to hear all the noises of the environment (I live on 7th floor in apartment) where the sounds of all kinds abound.

The heat, humidity and mosquitoes have me upset.

It is in those moments when I repeat to myself positive phrases to keep calm as "Janitze calm, breathe and do not focus on the future, because that will open the door to negative thoughts, think about the here and now Do not be so dissatisfied with yourself, this evil will pass" ... and suddenly I say to myself What is happening here? This is NOT NORMAL because it is one day and the next one too.

And that is when I lose control...

To the point of many times bursting into tears because of the impotence and frustration of something that is not under the control of anyone, only of the governmental entity that regulates this and all the services.

I am trying to cope with the "new normal" in my city without sequels in my mental health. Thank you community for allowing me to share my misfortunes and mixed emotions of living, this daily tragedy, and sustained over time, a situation where many of my peers in my country, are also going through the same.

I have to wait for this to be solved until my body can withstand, and my will is not lacking.... What else is possible?

Thank you all for reading this far.