Tonight is full of emotions... Burst in anger, fear, and overthinking. I'm sad that I have to justify my daughter of getting the candies from my bag. It's not my intention to burst into anger as I want to give her a lesson that she should not steal anything to someone's things without his/her permission. I give her pieces of advise but I don't know if she took what I said seriously. She's just 4 years old and I don't force her to do things yet I insist. I don't know what to do.
Another thing in the same day and almost in same time was that, she uses comfort room and it took couple of minutes in there, not knowing she gets my liquid soap for private part and pour all of it somewhere, anywhere! What I do is to let her stay in an area where she has to face the wall. She cried a lot as I give her a painful rod. Tell me, am I bad mom? All I want is to give her a lesson but still she's too young. I don't know what to do.
We go to bed and slowly asking her what did she do to my liquid soap. And slowly talks about it but not that perfect as expected. However, I do understand her even it's not that valid. She hugged me. It came across on my mind. What if God's will, he'll take me somewhere to my dream job? What will happen to my children? Will they grow accordingly? There are a lot of questions that I came to the point that I cried a lot. I can't breathe, can't composed myself to my innocent daughter, asking her, would you miss Mama if she'll work afar from you? And she nodded. It breaks my heart! All I want is to give them a comfortable life yet if the consequences would be the ruined relationship. Then, I don't want to loosen this tight anymore. What should I do? Please. I don't know what to do😭😭.
I'll appreciate if you give your honest advise to me. Thanks for your time🥹. God bless.