Again, It’s me, a professional ranter.
Just like the title, I’ve been wondering lately where did the time go? I woke up then it’s already evening. I didn’t even get to do many things while I should have been doing a lot.
Ideally.. I like to work 17 to 18 hours a day. That’s only IF things were fine & I can switch my mind back to being a borderline robot. BUT that’s not the case these days. I can not turn on the robot mode in me like it used to.
I’d love to meet fellow workaholics. And if you happen to be one of them, I have a question. Did you ever feel like a failure when you don’t work hard enough?
Though I admit, work-life-balance is fun and I like that. And even with those long hours, I still get them all. But these days, I find myself wanting to have more work and be drowned with work. In fact, If there's an opportunity that makes me work 18-20 hours a day, I’d do that.
However, as much as I wanted to work that long, there are some factors that I find difficult to control, energy. *Perhaps it’s just me getting older and it all hits me all at once? *
Really though, even when my mind wanted to do so many things if the energy wasn't there, it just wasn't there. I have to fix this energy problem very soon or otherwise, I’ll keep wondering where did the time go?
Like today, I woke up, I did some room renovation, went to swim, to the market and only around 10 PM, I feel like I am ready to do some heavy tasks but at the same time because of the surroundings, it makes me sleepy. I used to live in a place where I don’t know if it’s a day/night so that makes it easier to alter my perception of time. However, these days I live in a place with windows that show me it’s dark outside and it’s bright in the morning.
And even when I do those tasks, I feel like I haven’t accomplished something meaningful. While people out there probably do cool stuff. I just had to be satisfied with existing and doing nothing. Maybe one day instead of 24 hours, we get to have 48 hours maybe just maybe, life would even be more fun for people like me who think 24 hours isn’t enough.