I guess this will be more of a general update since I haven't posted in a while. I have been thinking about it, but the inspiration hasn't been there. And I'm learning more and more not to force things. Instead, I'm trusting that it will return, the inspiration.
And now, towards the end of the year, it feels good to kind of summarize my last 3 months or so. It was 3 months since I finished my job. So I have had much more free time. In the beginning, I was so relieved. Finally free of that soul-crushing job. And I had a plan. To get back into coaching and to do a new training. I actually ended up doing 3 new trainings, investing quite a bit in myself. (By the way, in my opinion, the best investment you can make).
But what also happened was that I couldn't shake the feeling of feeling uninspired. And since I didn't have to do anything if I didn't want to, I ended up a lot on the couch watching Netflix. I'm still struggling a lot with my health so it's always tempting to just rest. But of course that's not the life I want!
Then there's still the ongoing process of trying to get my flat sold. I have been living in a staged home now for 6 months and as a person who is really sensitive to my environment (I really appreciate beauty), it hasn't been good for me.
And now it's winter. The season I always dread. I really hoped I would be someplace warm by now. But it is what it is.
Ok but wait. Enough with this complaining, haha. It's not all bad. Even though I had hoped (and to be honest also had expected from myself) to have done more, I have been in a rather deep process. The trainings I have done have been very deep. All with the amazing Sofia Sundari. And I know that if I were to embody everything that I learned and realized in these containers, my life would look very different. They are all leadership trainings. Deep spiritual work. How to live in alignment with your dharma, going after your deepest desires, shadow work, erotic embodiment, etc. They were also very intense. So I haven't fully dived into all of the material. And done the inner work. But I have some time. I still have access to the trainings for 1-2 months. So that's my plan really. To continue. Even though it's more of a challenge when the training isn't live anymore.
I have also completed one more coach training, all about women's empowerment. I submitted my portfolio before Christmas. This also means that I received coaching around this topic. So well, a lot of inner work when I think about it.
I guess I just feel a bit frustrated because I still haven't unleashed my creativity and inspiration. The plan was really to focus more on my coaching business again. But I think something is brewing. Things will fall into place. Again, it's all about trust.
I also have to decide whether to take a break from trying to sell my flat so I can relax more or if it's better to just keep trying. I still want to leave Stockholm and I'm actually surprised that the Universe is keeping me here. There must be a reason after all.
Since my flat isn't sold I also need to find a new job quite soon. I actually really thought it would be sold by the end of the year and that's why I 'gave' myself these 3 months of not working. But of course, that's not a long-term solution. Not with increasing interest rates...
Even so, in general, I feel really good about the new year. I'm so ready to leave 2022 behind. I'll do some rituals and I already feel a lot of new energy coming in.
And yes, for 2023, I'll have some resolutions. (Usually, I don't but this year I really desire to). One of them (I haven't decided on all yet) will be to not watch Netflix (or any streaming services) for one year. I know I can do it (I have done so before). When I'm bored I can always read and when I'm too tired for that I can always, always connect to my body in some way.
There is probably a lot more I wanted to write about but I'll leave it like this for now. More posts coming up soon 🙂
Thanks for reading 🌸
Love and blessings to you all 💚
