Suddenly, I just felt like "I had enough." I want to escape and stay unnoticed by everyone. Right now, all I want is to hide and sulk a little. And so, I did...
To be honest, I want to go without informing everyone. But then I thought it would be too much for Mommy F, she might overthink or something, so I changed the plan.
I really want to go to the sea, it's just near us, just a 5-minute ride. Just thinking about the sea, I feel like I can find peace of mind in there. But I change my mind again. Hahhhhhh!
I ended up going to the park. And my plan to go unnoticed is an epic fail because I decided to inform Mom. But despite me doing that, she still called Mama and asked her to follow me here in the park.
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I know she's just worried..
And that's why I didn't dare go out without informing the oldies, at least I know she won't be anxious at home.
I'll just spend my whole day in the park and enjoy my free time.
But I really want to go alone.
But Mama is already here.
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Aigooooo
Here's what I brought with me on this plan: "Escape to Reality," a hanky, an umbrella, and the Turon I bought on my way while looking for a money changer.
Well, yeah, I had to withdraw some cash to fund this "escape to reality" of mine. Doing this is kinda costly, but still fun.
And seriously, I just want to stuff my mouth with a lot of food. When you're in a bad mood, food is one of the cures to feel a little bit happy.
The next stop was at Angel's Burger. I ordered one footlong and requested my footlong bread to be toasted. The lady said yes to it, so happy me.
I also bought fried rice with chicken liver adobo, this is for my lunch. As I said, I will spend my whole day in the park. I'm really serious about escaping reality right now. I had to… or I'll go crazy.
Here's more food, 3 for 20 pesos of lumpiang shanghai chicken flavor. Hah, I'm really stuffing my mouth with all this food here.
I arrived in the park, and I received a chat from Mommy F. I sent this photo to her to show that I'm in the park. Maybe she's still thinking that I'm going somewhere far, even though I already told her that I'll be in the park the whole day.
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Here are fries and a soft drink, I bought them at one of the food stalls in the park. It's just part of my "enjoying my free time." Once I go back home, I'm back with reality again.
Still, this unplanned walk did a lot for me. I am so determined to leave home because I suddenly feel suffocated with everything, the house chores, my role as a nanny for the cat, cleaning their mess and feeding them, it's exhausting you know. I need more help but, it's hard to get that when the other is doing something to avoid it.
I hate all of this!
I am considering leaving home and go somewhere far. Somewhere where I don't need to be responsible to something I didn't sign for...
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Hahhh! I'm sleepy.
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In the end, I still had to do what I had to do at home. I escape reality fir a bit but my obligation is still there... Life, parang buhay...