Fighting Laziness and Regaining Proactivity

I am a little angry with myself because, for the past few days, I have been lazy, tired, indisposed, and too lazy to do anything. I don't really want to blame it on the cold and catarrh I am having at the moment, but on myself for not being proactive in matters regarding my life.

My personal mission statement is to be proactive in every aspect of my life, but yet I have failed myself. I have failed to follow my regular habit pattern. On a normal day, I wake up 5 a.m. and follow a stream of activities that involve praying, exercising, cleaning, reading, and writing before any other activity of the day, but recently, I have been waking up too late, even when I sleep early. Imagine waking up at 8 a.m. today and around 9 a.m. yesterday, which was Monday.

Waking up so late disorients my mental system so much that I cannot follow the routine, and thus my whole day gets affected. I end up not feeling in control again, and I feel lazy. I hate that feeling, and this has affected my writing on Hive. This is one of the reasons I have not written any posts on Hive for the past 4 days, even when I really needed to do this so that I could achieve my goals for this month.

Talking about my goals for this month, it feels like I may not be able to attain them because of how I have wasted the last 4 days. I need to finish some courses before the deadline and build two projects that involve computer vision and NLP, which means natural language processing. These are the set goals for the year so I can end the year feeling accomplished, and somehow I fear I may not accomplish these goals.

But anyways, I am doing my best to fight that tiring feeling by forcing myself to write down my thoughts on here—what I think about myself—and maybe this will cause my system to push and start putting its brains and body to work as time waits for no man, as my future depends on every minute I spend during these times.

Tomorrow would be another opportunity to start the day, and I hope my body doesn't feel too weak to start. Hopefully my mind will be strong enough to fight, knowing how close my deadlines are.

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