So I tried everything to recover my private keys but nothing worked, not even a specialized disk recovery firm. Disk trim that ssds have enabled by default made sure of that, that is an option that increases longevity and speed of your ssd but also completely destroys data that was there before if you erased it. Good thing to keep in mind if you have an ssd with important data.
Trying to be more positive these days, I can still post here and set beneficiary to my 2nd account, maybe I can get it started slowly with fresh Hive. Is there a point to write from there or just keep it here where all the history is?