Hi, how’s life doing lately?
Welcome back to another soulful chat on my blog #2! LOL xD
Last night, I was watching a YouTube vlog that somehow related to my life, it talks about how would you balance your circle as small as possible. Somehow it took me an hour to think about if should I post it on my blog. Well, here it is!
Growing up, we’re constantly meeting new people and trying to create new friendships. One of the best feelings is when you instantly click or connect with and hopefully can build on your new relationship on the contrary. It sucks when you find yourself stuck in a group that’s unwelcoming and not genuine.
I feel like we’ve all experienced being left out before. It’s such an unfortunate feeling --- but we’ve all been there sometimes. I think it’s human nature to try and fit in, or ‘act cool’ to hang out with a certain group of people. But when sacrificing your personality and values to impress others, the best option is to step away from that group.
Back in elementary, probably when I was in fourth grade, I found myself in a similar situation. I was a new girl, trying to find my place in a sea of already-established friendships. I was different and not as outgoing as others. This made me an easy target for a group of girls who seemed to take pleasure in highlighting these differences. They would make fun of my clothes, interests, and grades. I tried to laugh it off, to fit in, but the pain was real. I feel alone, isolated, and misunderstood.
In my desperation to be accepted, I tried to change myself. I started dressing like them, talking like them, and even acting like them. I tried to fit into their mold, suppressing my true self in the process. But no matter how hard I tried, I was still the outsider, the one they would run to when they needed someone to ridicule.
It was a painful experience, one that left me emotionally scarred. I didn’t tell my parents because I didn’t want them to worry. I thought I could handle it on my own, but in reality, I was sinking deeper into despair.
But here’s the thing, trying to fit in with people who don’t accept you for who you are is like trying to fit a square peg into a round hole. It just doesn’t work. And it’s okay not to fit in. Because the truth is, those who matter don’t mind, and those who mind, don’t matter.
In the midst of my high school life, I found solace in a group of people who were as different as I was. They were the outliers, the ones who didn’t quite fit into the typical high school cliques. And they welcomed me with open arms.
With them, I felt free. Free to be myself, to express my thoughts and feelings without fear of judgment. They didn’t care about the clothes I wore or the music I listened to. All they cared about was me, my heart, and my mind.
For the first time in a long time, I felt like I belonged. I could cry, laugh, and share my deepest secrets without fear of ridicule. They understood me, and I understood them. We were a team, a family, sisters to be exact.
But as with all good things, our time together was fleeting. High school almost ended then came the inevitable fallout. A misunderstanding led to a fight, which led to a falling out. The friendship that had once been my safe haven was now a source of pain. It was hard to let go, to move on from the bonds we had built over four years. But I knew it was what I had to do.
We all moved on, leaving our shared past behind. It was like leaving a favorite restaurant after a meal – you know you can’t stay there forever, even though the food was good.
Endings are not always bad. Sometimes, they are just a new beginning in disguise.
The end of our friendship was unbearable, but it was also a learning experience. It taught me about the transient nature of relationships, about the importance of communication, and about the strength of forgiveness.
Today, we’re all on good terms. We’ve grown up, moved on, and learned from our past. We may not be as close as we once were, but the bond we formed in high school will always be a part of us. My Cornelia Street.
And that’s the beauty of life. It’s a series of hellos and goodbyes, of beginnings and endings. It’s about meeting new people, building relationships, and learning from them. It’s about growing, changing, and becoming the best version of ourselves.
After the dust had settled from the end of my high school friendships, I found myself in a period of introspection. I thought about the kind of relationships I wanted to have and the kind of people I wanted to surround myself with. It was during this time that I came to a realization – it’s not about the quantity of friends, but the quality.
This realization led me to form two new circles of friends – LAYA and TTT. These groups were smaller, and more intimate, and they were exactly what I needed.
The LAYA circle, named after our shared journey of letting go and finding freedom, was a breath of fresh air. We were a group of individuals who had experienced our first share of hardships and heartbreaks, but we had one thing in common: we had all chosen to let go of our pasts and embrace the future with open arms.
With them, we found solace and strength in each other. We were each other’s confidants, cheerleaders, and most importantly, friends. We celebrated our victories together, big or small, and held each other up during the tough times.
The bond that we shared was not just based on shared experiences, but also on mutual respect and understanding. We valued each other’s individuality and embraced our differences, knowing that it was these differences that made our bond stronger
Then came the TTT circle.
The TTT circle was a group of random and unexpected people who come together in the most unexpected way, just like in Seventeen’s TTT Gose episode. We were a group of individuals with different backgrounds, interests, and personalities. But despite our differences, we found common ground in our shared love for positivity and healthy relationships.
I am grateful for the friendships I have formed and the lessons I have learned. I am happy to have found my family, the people who accept me for who I am and inspire me to be the best version of myself.
May you find your LAYA, your TTT. Find the people who celebrate you for who you are, who lift you up when you’re down, and who inspire you to be the best version of yourself.
Because at the end of the day, it’s the people who make you smile, who make you laugh, and who make you better, that truly matter.
And to wrap it up, once again it's Thesoulofsol. Thank you for staying and allotting your time here, in my space. Have a lovely night >< until our next talk!